swan to be BLUE

This afternoon I bought something in Guardian. After paid, the cashier gave me a stamp together with the receipt. I was wondering what it is for... then I spotted some cards on the counter which I guess that's where the stamp should be put on. So I asked for it :


Owhhh they're SO CUTE!!!!!!

I WANT THE GIRAFFE!!!!!!

BUT. Err... RM15 for a stamp. I need to collect 40 stamps in order to redeem a FREE plush toy.

RM15 x 40 = RM600

Uhm. It meant that I gotta spend RM600 in Guardian?!?!

Arghhh It's so impossible =(

So pleaseee... whoever is NOT interested in the plush toy... Can give the stamp to me ar? >.< Your help will be so much appreciated. I will...... uhm... let the little girrafe give you a kiss after I got it, ok?? =D


By the way, it has been 1 month since I joined Integricity. HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY to ShuWan \o/ LoL. Everything is fine... the colleagues are cool / the office is superb / the work is enjoyable / the guardian angel is caring...

Well, I guess the only thing that I am still adjusting myself to the this place is the LUNCH TIME. Aikz. Yea I know the best communication time is during the lunch where everyone can hang out together and have a chit chat while makan. But I just can't make it... it's not that I don't like to join them. The truth is, I need to save $$... Aikz. Life is not easy. Expensive room rental... and can you imagine that only the car parking already cost me RM200 every month? Of course I know that definitely I will have enough money to survive for now... but my new car is reaching soon... dad and mom knew that it gonna be a burden for me so they suggested that dad will pay the loan for me first.

=(

You know... I felt that I am so useless. I've graduated for almost a year yet I can't pay the car loan on my own. Therefore I need to save up so that I can take this burden over. I am one who doesn't like to spend much on food. Some people said that it's worth to spend on nice meals. Ya... Once in a while is ok for me... but I can't have it frequently. So I rather save the money to pay the loan for my car, and also for my dream - a DSLR.

Now the only thing I hope is PTPTN can exempt me from the loan payment. Government please be fair to all the batches.

NEXT POST : CCF binding camp at Dusun Eco!

That day before I left Cyber, XiaoBai said that JJ and he got something for me...


Yippieeee!! I was so happy! Because this is something that I was looking for and longing to buy.

A million THANKS to XiaoBai and JJ for being so thoughtful =)

Recently there's a game called "Guardian Angel" going on in integricity office. *FUN* Yea it is the same as the 小天使 小主人 game we used to play in CCF... and some other camps. Since last Wednesday, everyone of us has got our own mortal to take care of.



Cute right? =)

Thanks for it angel! What you've done has brightened up my day =)

站在阳台上遥望，璀璨的灯光在黑夜中闪烁... 我想念的却是繁星点缀的夜空。

这是我在PJ工作的第三个星期。越习惯... 就越不想在这个地方继续呆下去。都市的繁华，对我一点吸引力都没有。反之，觉得这是一种吵闹及繁杂。也许因为从小就在僻静的环境中长大，我对一点点的喧哗都会觉得很反感。尤其下雨时，那哗啦啦的雨声更是让我眉头紧锁。

成长的过程中，总是会对未来有不同的憧憬。觉得自己可笑的是，从梦想自己成为有江山事业、跨国越海的大女人，到现在打了个U-turn，只想成为隐蔽在深山中、与世无争的小女人。

走在 shopping mall 里，看着络绎不绝，穿着高档的人群... 我觉得好陌生。总觉得自己走进一个错的空间，不属于我的世界。舞池中的摇摆，畅饮后的欢笑，对城市人而言，也许这就是生活的享受。在霓虹灯下的红男绿女们眼中，我们这些工作后就足不出户的... 算是土包子吧? 土包或豆沙包都好，生活水准越高... 我就越想往回钻。

我没有期待自己可以穿上名牌的大衣，也不奢望自己可以踏入高级的餐厅。如果有选择，我宁可回到居銮工作。我一直跟ahfai说，以后我不要留在KL。我真的好想到朴素的小地方生活，不论居銮或美里。没有有气派的大房子，没有豪华的大汽车... 我不介意。只要一家人可以平安开心地一起生活，没有缺乏，已经没什么好要求的了。

上星期早上出门工作时，在门口遇见隔壁的uncle正抱着一岁或两岁大的孙女走着回来。Uncle很友善，跟他孙女说姐姐去做工，还叫她跟我byebye :) 而每次放工回来，经过他家时... 都会闻到诱人的香味，看到厨房里的auntie正忙着做菜。我猜想，孩子工作... 所以把父母接过来住吧。妈妈曾开玩笑说，以后我们的工作稳固了... 就接他们来这里住。啊，我才不要。连我都不想呆下去了，他们又怎会适应呢。而且住在城市一点都不自在，出门得考虑是否会遇上塞车的时段，处处又得提防成为罪犯的对象，没有大自然的鸟鸣声... 车鸣声倒是像首交响曲......

看来，我真的很不喜欢这个地方。

但。为了经验，为了一技之长，为了奠定未来生活的基础... 目前的我还是必须叹一口气，继续不情愿地跟随这繁忙的生活节奏。

有些人注定在一辈子活在城市里。然而还有些人，像我，每天都在倒数，期待着离开城市的那一天。

千头万绪，但却理不出完整的文章。紊乱，却又空白。

我没有想到这一天会来得这么快。

是你自己说没这么快的。说真的，有种被骗的感觉 =.=

不管怎样，这终究是个喜讯。能够看到好朋友找到属于自己的幸福，我一直在期待的，不就是这一天么？

泛黄的回忆，已经不堪回首。但感恩的是我们谁也都不曾让它蒙上厚厚的尘灰。有时候在想，我们算是好朋友吗？面对面倾心聊天的次数有多少... 透过文字的表达似乎比言语更多。

曾经有一句话，你让我觉得很感动。 你说，你很珍惜我们的这份友情。其实，我也很珍惜。也许，我比你更珍惜。因为这份友情是我用心去换回来的。我不知道中四中五那两年你所做过的有多少，但是至少有这么一年半，你的名字都是我日记里的一部分。当中的酸甜苦辣，唯有我自己知道。

真的很想念那段青涩的过去，两个人都傻乎乎的，却也很认真很小心翼翼地呵护所拥有的友情...

时间真的过得好快。

我在想，到了那天看到你穿着西装站在人生幸福的舞台上时，我会不会开心到哭...

谢谢你为这份友情所曾付出的。能够和你结识并成为好朋友... 一路来所经历的，我都向上帝感恩。但愿你步上新的人生旅途后，我们依然会是惺惺相惜的好朋友 :)

我会出席你的婚礼。因为我要目送你搭上这趟幸福列车，给你我最深的祝福 :)

第一天。我喜欢这间公司!

工作就先别提，因为目前我不是很喜欢这样长时间对着电脑重复同样的动作。希望明天的外景拍摄能让我有新的体会 :)

一直都听朋友说这间公司很好，他们尝试申请都没有收到回应... 曾经，我也是。一封简历寄出去后就石沉大海。原本不再抱任何希望，离开BillAdam后也没什么打算。怎知却意外接获这个工作机会... 实在是上帝的恩典。虽然只是6个月的合约，但我深信这段时间一定可以学到很多摄影知识和技巧 :)

第一天，我的上司笑嘻嘻地交给我一个大信封，说是公司欢迎我的一份礼物。一打开，里头有2张礼券 --> 我可以向两个同事换取一支舞蹈。哈。一张美食名单... 叫我务必要去尝试这些KL和PJ出名的美食。
还有一大堆的小产品， 据 checklist 说...

牙膏牙刷 -- 留在公司熬夜赶工需要的；

“以罗” -- 以防吃太多美食后消化不良；

口香糖 -- 避免吃东西后的口臭；

止痛药 -- 有些工作可能会让我很头痛；

三合一咖啡 -- 提供我一整天工作的精力；

很可爱吧？ 呵呵。这真的是间很有创意的公司... 虽然只是给员工的礼包，但是都做得很正式很精致 :) 厨房总会有人负责添购饮料和零食... 同事们也会带零食来和全公司的人分享。总之呢，在这里工作是绝对不会饿死的。

第一天。我不喜欢这个地区!!

房子高级一点，车子大辆一点，衣服名牌一点，讲英文多一点... 就仿佛是个高阶层人士，不把别人放在眼里 :( 我还是喜欢小地方... 想念车辆稀疏的 Cyber，也想念居銮。对PJ这个地方，我只能说，“不是我的菜!”

今天一回到房间，就觉得好难过... 那股难受，和当初转到马大念书的感觉是一样的。百般不情愿留在这个地方，只想着要回Cyber。不知道自己可以撑多久。真的宁可花钱每天来回Cyber和PJ... 塞车就塞车吧，至少回到家有朋友的温暖... 不像在这里，我只知道屋主的名字... 才和另一间房的屋友打过一次照面。冷冰冰的 :(

想念ahfai :( 虽然前几个月也是在一个Cyber一个PJ的情况下度过.... 但是这次真的很不一样，因为我是单独一个人在这里。:(
不管怎样，ahfai说的对... 我不是孤单的，上帝一直与我同在。前几天真的很难过，很多的害怕和担心... 不论 ahfai 怎么安慰我都没办法让我卸下这些的忧虑。从小到大，妈妈都说我很会杞人忧天... 实际上我也真的是这样。结果在收拾时，看到了自己在书展上买的一张卡，原本是想留着... 有需要时用它来鼓励身边的人。没想到，却用在自己身上了。

I know it has been very looooooooooong time that I didn't update my blog.

WHY??

Malas lo =P So now I blog everything in one go. Combo XD

Ever since I finished my so-called "training" in BillAdam, I was busy for a freelance job. Once the job was done, I went back Kluang for 1 week... Here are those BEST things! >>

1. Went to my GRANDPARENTs' house at BatuPahat to celebrate for my grandma's birthday... So happy! Usually I only get to visit my grandparents once or twice in a year. Even though can't communicate with them much because I can't speak Hokkien well, I treasure the moment with them...

2. Celebrated my MUMMY's birthday!! Hohoho. Enjoy the time with my beloved family...

3. Met up with FRIENDS!! Yeay! In Kluang, I yumcha with PeiChian, KaiLoon, HaoWei, AhYap, YihWei. On the day I back to KL, I met up with PeiLing, AhTuan, LuYean, ChizXian.. WOW. It's so happy to meet them up... my dearest friends in STABK =D

After my holiday in Kluang ended, I just simply lepak in Cyber. Everyday sleep gao gao. But still, I have quite some tasks to be completed... Giving helping hands to people around... design this and that. I plan to shoot a video during these 2 weeks but I don't even have time to start on it. Sad =(

Actually I felt kinda lost after I have ended my last job. I kept thinking how I should move on. I love doing animation... but there's no such vacancy around Cyberjaya area. Somemore I was quite hesitating whether to take a job that I need to sit in front of PC for long hours. Hence, browsing the job matches from lina@jobstreet.com, JenJOBs.com, JobsDB everyday, I still cannot make decision which job to apply. Everytime watching the video posted in Facebook (especially those pre-wedding film), I was thinking how nice it would be if I can be a photographer or videographer...

I can only pray. Pray for God's guidance. I believe He has the BEST job for me.

THEN!!

NOW, A job has been offered to me miraculously. LoL. I was really surprised as I never think that I would be given such opportunity. I can do animation as I like ( but not 3D cartoon... ) and I don't have to be in front of the PC for loooong hours. What's more... I can learn to take photography and shoot video!! Weeee \o/

BUT as everyone know, it's IMPOSSIBLE to travel from Cyber to PJ everyday. So the sad thing is, I need to move to PJ. I need to leave Cyberjaya... awhhhh =( Sien lo... ahfai just finished his internship at PJ and now I have to go PJ working =.=

ANYWAY. I decided to go for it. Give a try. I think most likely I will in love with this job =) Wish me luck k! =)

Ohya by the way, this is the website of my company-to-be. Check it out if you are curious what my new job is! =) *click here*

Last, I am doing a couple T design. The rabbit design is done. Now I need to go for printing... on the transfer paper... then iron on the clothes. This couple T will be put for sale. I wonder anyone would buy it >.< Whatever. If can't sell it then just keep it for myself lol!

我知道种族之间不应该有任何隔阂
但有时
我真的无法了解他们的幽默
无法融入他们的笑声

更不明白
为什么可以拼命地发牢骚数说对方的不是
突然又可以和对方亲密聊天哈哈大笑
对方走后
笑脸马上消失

这就是所谓的面具吗？

每个人都会有的
面具？

好想快点离开...

最近在Facebook找回很多小学同学... 很开心。因为真的和他们失去联络好久好久了... =) 一个个都变帅变漂亮了, 要不是藉着名字，真的还认不出他们哪... =P

但是，找回了他们，也想起了回忆里的他...
在小学的Facebook group中看到他姐姐的留言，才知道原来已经一年了。

好快... 他已经离开我们一年了 =(

记得去年收到妹妹SMS的那一刻，我真的愣住了。我不能接受那是一个事实。我从来没有想到会有朋友就这样从我的人生中默默地消失离开。那时的我真的好难过好难过... 虽然很久没有联络，但我一直期待着和大家重逢，包括他。

我的小学是最小型的华小... 人数不多。每一班级只有一班。所以，20多个人就这样从一年级同班到六年级，加上来自同一个新村，所以都还蛮熟络的。不是很记得小学时发生的事情，但是每一个人，我都记得...

真的好希望什么事情都没有发生过，27个人，一起再回到小学... 无忧无虑地在一起玩...

2007年10月29日，是我最后一次见到他... 他先打电话来找我爸爸，那个电话是我接听的... 心里估计应该是他。如果那天我没有那股勇气走出去和他打招呼，我一定会抱憾一生。其实那天我很高兴看到他，虽然只是短短的那一刹那...

当晚我还兴致勃勃地把那一个片段写下。然而一年后，就收到了他车祸身亡的噩耗 =(

“刚才一位小学同学来我家
2008年8月21日。
景生，永在我们的怀念中 =(

Remember my "Little Adults" t-shirt designs? *click here for the post*

This afternoon... out of sudden, I decided to submit the design to The101Clothing.com. It was reviewed in a very short time that I found the designs have been accepted and uploaded for vote now already!

I don't really have confidence with this design actually... kept thinking it could be done better. But whatever, if you like it... please give it a vote okay? If it gets the highest vote and been selected, maybe you gonna see it in shopping mall one day =P

OK. So how about my "transformer"? Well to be frank with you guys, I was really exhausted in producing it... *argh* No it's not 1 robot k... the design consists total of... 12 robots!! =.= BUT anyway some of them are actually just the same pose.. so copy and paste saje lah =P I have been spending my weekends on it and on my friends' convo at UKM. Kesian ahfai... I didn't have much time to teman him *sorry*

Wondering how my next Foldees greeting card is going to look like? Uhm... it is actually now waiting for the feedback. I can only get to know whether it will be up for rating on 22nd August. So stay tune to Foldees.com alright?

Here let u guys have a peep on the main character first...
Don't laugh at it pleaseeeeee... =( I am a girl who seldom watch robot cartoons and movies la!! It's already a MIRACLE that I can complete the robot design ok...

Hope I can get the feedback from Foldees soon so I can refine the design.

Many friends have been asking me about my WSW 1225. It's time to update everyone about this.

Ahem ahem.

I told my mum regarding the WSW. That was the time also I asked my mum to let the little Kelisa with me in KL first before my little brother learn driving. She broke my dreams... by asking me not to buy car... and dad might need to use the little Kelisa in Kluang

:(

Yea kinda dissapointed. That day I was in the van.. on the way back from Church. Looking out from the windows, I kept praying to God... asked for His words to comfort me. And I told God, I will be obedient to His will. even if I can't get WSW... can't have car to drive here...

After I reached home, mum called me that dad allowed me to drive my little Kelisa here!!! *wow* Praise God! One week later, she called me again in the early morning and told me, dad has bought the WSW for me!!!

BUT. It's NOT 1225. Because dad didn't know that I want the combination of mine and ahfai's birthday date. Anyway I am happy enough to have WSW as my car plate alphabets! =D

Another BUT. I am not getting a Navy Blue MyVi as I dreamt. Dad has chosen the model for me... dang dang dang dang!! Here come the TEASER =.=
Hehehehe. Can guess it?

Well. I was just informed few days ago, that my dad will buy the car by the end of this month. *Oh Nooooooooo* It was so scary to hear that!! It means that I need to pay the car loan soon... What's more? it means that I must have constant monthly pay in order to pay the car loan!! So? I have to get a full time job!! argh... GG... x.x I used to dream so much about the car and now, I wish that it won't come so soon... sob sob

After all, let it be. God is my provider. Nothing I should be worrying about. :)

So now? The kelisa is with me in Cyber. I got it on Tuesday and the next day, I drove alone to Kelana Jaya alone to fetch ahfai.

How BRAVE I am.

This is my FIRST TIME driving ALONE to KELANA JAYA. @.@ I kept praying to God for protecting me. Really have to thanks God for the safe journey... :)

These few days I was driving to work. So lazy uhh =P And everyday after work, I got the "feel" of going lepak instead of going home XD. I will do it once for sure! =D When my Kelisa has full petrol... LoLz. It's quite enjoyable you know... Today crazy me even purposely took the longer route rather than the short one. keke

Till then. I need to continue with my transformer drawing. Yeah TRANSFORMER. Simple one laz of course. I was quite amazed when I found I can actually draw one... XD Will share with u guys when it's time for it to show up! :)

多久了
这份曾经的期待
竟在转眼间
就这样来到

- 2004年12月踏入MMU的门槛

- 2005年8月，convo在Malacca进行... 所以没法看热闹

- 2006年8月第一次出席MMU convo，触景后的blog --
"我也要毕业"
"从小学到中学到大学，一直以来期待的，不就是这一刻吗? 霎时，这给了我一种“苦尽甘来”的感觉。想象着自己穿着毕业袍和家人们合照的情景，我突然觉得好兴奋好期待 >.< 那会是多么美的一件事啊~ ！^0^ 不过一想到我的毕业典礼是三年后的事，就觉得好漫长... :( "

- 2007年8月第二次出席MMU convo，还是一样的感叹 --
"仙人掌的故事"
“最近参加senior的convo
每次看到别人带四方帽都好羡慕
还有两年才到我毕业
T.T

常常都有人问我
“为什么你还没有毕业的？”
“你好象在MMU很久了hor？”
是咯
我好像在MMU很久了咧
可是还有两年啊...
>.<... ”
- 2008年8月第三次出席MMU convo，有了一点兴奋的期待 --
“MMU Convo'08”
“又是毕业的季节。
看着朋友们相继地带上四方帽向MMU挥别，
心里不禁涌起一份期待。
明年。到我了。”

This weekend is special for me. Because I spent my Saturday and Sunday at Church... which I usually won't have the chance to do so.

In conjuction of 40 days fast and prayer 2009, CDPC had the prayer event for Sunday School Children which is called as KidsNatPrayer -- Kids National Prayer.

Since ahfai was serving on Sunday service, I followed him and his brother, CheeMeng to church though I have attended the Saturday service. Thanks ahmi for lending me her Nikon D300... it's awesome. Hehe. It has been such a long time that I didn't carry the camera and walk around. Thanks God for the chance. I love capturing the pictures of kids... they are cute :)

First thing first, I really want to THANK GOD. Glory to Him :)

Thanks to everyone for the vote... =D When I browsed through other designers' cards, I thought that I am not gonna stand any chance for this competition already. Yet the result surprised me! :)

I am satisfied. Not because of the prize but it showed me my future... :)

I've taken some time to "shift" my previous blog posts from my Friendster and MSN live spaces. Of course NOT all... they will be moved in slowly.

While "shifting" the blogs, it brings lots of memories to me...

... My life with 7-11 housemates >>

... with CCF brothers and sisters >>


... with STABK friends >>
... with debate class >>
... with Form6 gang >>
... and this!!!! >>
OK dudes. I know I have totally forgotten about the FORUM.. I am sorry to you guys. :( To compesate... I AM GOING TO ATTEND YOUR CONVO!!! Yes promised :D

( BUT sorry to Shouhorng, u graduated... DeXing, UPM convo crashes with MMU convo ler... JiannHaur, u know... Singapore kinda far from KL... >.< I know you guys very understanding one hor... :D)

So bacically, I am going to UKM for ahpow's and Andy's convo XD. Looking forward to meet ya!

This is what I have been doing is the last few days when free -->