蓝摄 ☼ 心情札记

写给敬爱的四姑

2011-06-21T03:14:00.000-07:00

亲爱的四姑，

我们谁也想不到，你会这样一声不响的就离开了我们。当我收到弟弟发来的短信时，我整个人都愣住了。头脑顿时空荡荡，只浮现出短信里的那几个字。

你走了。

这是那么的突然。前几天去你家的时候，面带倦容的你虽然看起来很弱，脸上却仍旧挂着一贯的微笑，亲切地和我们谈话。怎知这一见，竟成了永别。

我开始慌乱地在尘封的记忆里翻箱倒柜，努力挖掘你留下的点点滴滴。

妈妈说，我小时候你很疼我。我也很记得。由于你是幼儿班的老师，脾气特别好... 所以我一直都觉得你好亲切。你总是很有耐心、循循善诱地教导我。就算我长大了，上大学了，你还是会不时搬出你的人生历练跟我分享，给我应有的劝诫。

你是我的启蒙老师。在我三岁多的时候，爸爸妈妈就很放心的把我送进你所教的幼儿班。那几年，你常常带我到处去参加表演和参观农场等。是你教会我跳舞、唱歌... 也是你，教会我要融洽的和异族同胞们相处。你对小孩子们的耐心和爱心，直到现在都不曾减退... 也难怪你的三个小孙子那么爱贴着你。

你是我们魏家的裁缝师。我们全家大大小小的校服，都是出自你的巧手。哪件新衣买了不合穿，没关系，四姑可以帮忙改；找不到适合的衣服，没关系，四姑可以帮忙裁。偶尔你看到我们身上的衣服看起来松垮跨或穿得不自在，你就会眯起眼睛打量，然后叫我们把衣服交给你改。但从今以后，我们要自己学裁缝了...

小时候的我总是不明白，四姑你人那么好，怎么还没结婚？后来才明白，原来你曾有过一段不快乐的婚姻。很高兴你最后还是走出了那段回忆，不再孤身只影。我还记得，你再婚的那一天... 你的脸上洋溢着幸福的微笑。那天的你，真的好美。

你走了。你真的走了。这是我需要去面对且接受的事实。虽然现在的我，还是不能相信你已经不在我们当中...

你曾给予的劝勉，我会紧记在心；你那慈爱的笑容，将一辈子烙印在我脑海里。

我会想念你。一切你的好和你的美。

爱你的侄女，
淑婉

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六月十八日，是我最后一次见到四姑。那天听妈妈忧心忡忡地叙说了四姑的近况，虽然不是什么严重的大病或绝症，但因为紧抱着“生命短暂，把握每一次机会”的观念，我马上主动说要去看她。（换作是以前的我，应该会毫不在意的听过就算，等爸爸妈妈开口说要去探访时才跟着一起去。）那时候的我只是想，自己那么少回居銮... 既然有时间就应该珍惜可以和亲人见面的机会，毕竟不知道自己的生命下一秒会发生什么事。可我完全没有想到，那竟会是我和四姑最后的相见...

昨天晚上参加唐牧师的查经会，才刚坐下，就接到弟弟发来的短信说，姑姑过世了。那一刻的我真的呆住了。和弟弟通了电话后回到座位，把噩耗告诉ahfai的时候眼泪就开始不争气地落下，拿着诗歌本却半个字也唱不出声。就在这时，王福牧师说，我们来唱“面向永远的家园”... 我顿时一阵心酸。唱了一遍又一遍，王牧师不断强调且鼓励会众以喜乐的心来唱这首诗歌，因为能够永远和主在一起，那是多么令人振奋的盼望。我知道，能够在神国里有份，自己是有福的。但想到在这永远的家园里，却见不到这些在世时血浓于水的家人们... 我怎么也喜乐不起来... 后来，王牧师分享了他人生中死里逃生的经历，并提及基督徒和非基督徒对死亡所持有的态度。那番话对当时的我而言，感触特别的深。

死，代表生命的结束，是一个大家避之三尺，有所忌讳的字。

我以前很怕死。常常都会想，到底人死后是去哪里？有人说上天堂。那为什么每次烧金银纸给先人的时候，大人总是说那是因为怕先人在“地下”不够钱用呢？难道信基督教的就上天堂，信道教的就住地下？为什么基督徒不用轮回，佛教徒就得轮回？那么如果有一个人到临终前还是信基督教一半、信佛教一半，那他死后会被派去哪里啊？！对这些问题，我总是丈二金刚摸不着头脑。可能我想太多了。但就因为想得多，我开始在信仰中认真地摸索... 也最终让我找到了生命中最重要的答案 --- 这世界只有一位神，而每一个人死后的灵魂只有一个归处。

很多时候，我总是可以和身边的基督徒朋友们打趣说，以后在天上相聚的时候要怎样怎样。然而对于自己身边最亲最至爱而尚未信主的家人，我却无法说出这样满有盼望的一番话。真是好大的讽刺。面对基督徒朋友的离世，纵然心中有许多的不舍，但一想到以后还能再见，就觉得也没什么好难过的。可是每一次亲人的离去，我却只能默默地对他们说“永别”而并非“再见”...

我们并非说其他的宗教不好。只是若谈到生命结束后的去向，我们是应该认真地坐下来仔细去思索的。做好事就一定能上天堂吗？那要做多少件好事才能确保自己能上天堂呢？如果用尽医生做了无数件好事，却在生命的最后一秒犯了滔天大罪，那还能不能上天堂呢？

你们得救是本乎恩，也因着信，这并不是出於自己，乃是上帝所赐的，也不是出於行为，免得有人自夸。-- 弗2:8-9

有人说信耶稣能上天堂只是一种自我麻醉，只不过让人可以安心地去面对死亡。但我想，这信仰到底是不是种自我麻醉... 惟有愿意探索真理的人知道答案。从不愿去经历去认识这信仰而只会在旁批评论断的人，应该很难理解这其中的奥秘。

生命的问题，刻不容缓。不要说“等一下才想”，因为我们永远不知道生命会不会等我们一下。更不要等到亲人的离开时才去思考这些的问题，因为那时候的我们已经失去和那位亲人再相见的机会了。

我知道，这是一封永远都寄不出的信。但唯有透过文字，我才得以抒发内心的情感。也希望能藉这篇文章，鼓励大家好好珍惜和身边挚爱的人相处的每一刻。我真的很感恩那一天的我决定去探望姑姑，能够和她见最后一面... 而且她留给我的，是一幅她脸带微笑的画面。

其实，我们应该好好珍惜生命中所拥有的每一刻。但更应该知道，生命不在我们的掌控当中... 有些人、事、物我们实在来不及去珍惜。如果真有这么一个事实，其实我们的灵魂能够在另一个空间相见且延续的话，何不... 捉住这应许呢？

是时候苏醒了 :)

2011-05-26T20:09:00.000-07:00

一包牛奶，两张字条，唤醒了我沉睡的爱 =)

这两天，因为要去短宣的缘故，一群来自北大的弟兄姐妹们暂住在雪娥姐的家。第一天晚上只有一位姐妹，于是雪娥姐问我能不能让她睡在我的房里。我的房间里一直以来都铺着两张床，以备接待妹妹.. 或ahsong.. 或其他姐妹们，所以我当然没问题。然而这次比较不同，因为要接待的是一位素未谋面的姐妹... 或多或少，心里还是会觉得有点怪怪。哈哈。不过转念想想，也还好吧。之前常常去camp不也都是和不认识的人一起睡吗 =P

第一天晚上，我和朋友吃了晚餐回来，客厅已经很热闹一下了。我一如往常般的钻进房里，也没出去打招呼。后来Carol，我这晚的房友，轻步地走了进来。由于我在专注地做东西，所以没有和她多聊什么。12点多时转头一看，她已经无声无息地睡着了。后来完成了我的工作，我就马上关灯.. 然后倒头就睡。隔天早上醒来，才发现床边有张字条。原以为是Carol写note的时候不小心掉下的，捡起来的时候却发现上面写着自己的名字。原来Carol昨晚临睡前偷偷地写了字条和我道晚安。好窝心的一个女生呀！我是那种很喜欢别人写东西给我的人，所以这张字条很理所当然的触动了我的心，也把两人之间的墙完全打破了 :)

后来中午的时候，一直在客厅的Carol进来房里，趴在床上就很自然的开始和我聊起来。她真的是一个很可爱的女生，可以很敞开地和我谈她未来的打算，还分享了她如何疯狂地度过她大学的最后一个学期。Carol 给我的感觉很亲切，因为很“Geraldine”。哈哈。Geraldine 是我所爱的其中一位姐妹。Carol 真的，真的超级像 Geraldine 的... 哦！她也是来自古晋的。古晋的女生都那么开朗的吗... :D

这个晚上，由于还有另外两个姐妹也到了，所以雪娥姐安排她们三人睡另一间房。Carol “搬”出我房间的时候，留了一包牛奶给我，说是让我当隔天的早餐 :) 第二天早上醒来打开门，发现地上又有字条。是Carol 透过门缝偷偷塞进来的。嗯，应该不算是字条了... 是一封短信。就这样，她的爱心又点亮了我的早晨 :)

自从毕业后，一个人在外住... 发现自己少了很多以前在大学时候有的爱心和热心。又或许是因为年纪大了 *咳* ，所以也没有了那种的活力。送饮料... 写字条... “猫”在房里聊天大笑... 三更半夜去吃McD去喝茶... 已经很久没有以这样的方式，去关心身边的人。这几天在房里，听着这群学生们在客厅嘻嘻哈哈地弹着吉他唱歌、一起预备短宣时所需的材料... 禁不住也想起了曾经自己和CCFer们度过的那一段时光。好怀念... :) 好希望大家都能搬来SPA这里住，半夜去彼此的家串门子，重温大学那美好的时光。哈哈。

这几个月，因为一些的事... 常常没法开心的去享受每一天的生活。积聚在我心里的，尽是疑惑、忧虑、哀愁... 很感恩上帝藉着Carol，温暖了我的心。是时候想想，可以如何每一天把这份被唤醒的爱心，分享给我身边的人 :)

为日本祷告 Pray for Japan

2011-03-14T11:10:00.000-07:00

在日本发生了140年以来最严重的地震。

全世界的人的心，都和日本人一起，被震碎了。

报章上，电视上，网络上，尽是日本灾后满目疮痍的照片。对于全人类而言，除了眼前的残局，大家的脑海里也都不禁浮现出，曾经那些灾区同样被大自然如此蹂躏的画面。

每一次的灾祸，都仿佛是个无声的提醒。

很多人说，大自然在咆哮。这些的灾难，都是大自然在报复人类对它所做出的破坏。于是，大家努力推行绿色环保运动，强调要爱地球，要保护地球。

我们竟然天真地以为，只要人类团结一心，就一定可以拯救地球。

可能真的可以。针对冰山溶解、大气层破裂、温室效应，绿色环保有助于减轻问题的严重性。

但是，人类们，请睁大双眼看看，这是地震！地震是天灾，不是我们人类靠着自己的能力就能够去抵挡去阻止的。或许，我们所进行的活动或多或少会诱发地震，但绝对不可能到震级如此强烈的地步。

在大自然的力量面前，人类竟是如此的渺小。

苦笑。

我们不能做什么。人，固有一死，只是死法不同而已。就算逃过了今天，也未必逃得过明天。

然而，重点是，就算天崩地裂，地球爆炸消失不见... 人类的灵魂终是不灭的。血肉之躯，不过是我们在这世上短短几十年的暂居之处。离开这个世界后，所有人类的灵魂还是会归回一处。然后经由神的审判，再各自被定夺将何去何从。相信神儿子的，归一处；不相信神儿子的，另归一处。

神？这世界真的有神么？

如果真的有神，为什么还会有那么多的悲剧发生？为什么要让人类饱受这样的折磨和痛苦？这位神，难道就那么残暴？那还说什么神爱世人... 根本就是骗人。

骗人？

到底是谁在骗谁？

我们离弃了神，拒绝相信神的存在，一心认为自己就是万物的主宰，相信靠自己的努力必能得到一切所要的。我们在活得最舒适的时候，把神赶出了我们的生活；却在最无助的那一刻，仰天哭问为什么神要如此待我们... 究竟是神不看顾我们？还是我们人类把自己推向地狱的门口？

「当时，耶稣对他们说：〝民要攻打民，国要攻打国，地要大大震动，多处必有饥荒、瘟疫，又有可怕的异象和大神迹从天上显现。〞」路加福音21:10-11

世界末日，总有一天会到来。但会在哪一天，没有人猜得到，也无法预言得到。

「那日子，那时辰，没有人知道，连天上的使者也不知道，子也不知道，惟独父知道。挪亚的日子怎样，人子降临也要怎样。当洪水以前的日子，人照常吃喝嫁娶，直到挪亚进方舟的那日；不知不觉洪水来了，把他们全都冲去。人子降临也要这样。」马太福音24:36-39

最近已有探险队在土耳其东部的亚拉腊山找到挪亚方舟遗骸。经历了数千年，方舟的结构竟然因为环境的优势而被保存下来，并且在这个时代被人类发掘... 仿佛在提醒人们那场曾经在不知不觉中将人类冲走的洪水，所以现在的我们应当开始警醒，因为末日的那一天，也将不知不觉地到来。

无论如何，你可以不相信世界末日。你可以对着这篇文章冷笑。但在你的不屑之后，请你认真地来为日本祷告。不要只是加入"Pray for Japan"的Facebook group/page，然后不断地说这场灾祸很可怕、那些日本人很可怜... 这些页面的存在绝对不是让我们表现对日本的同情和怜悯，而是要提醒我们，诚心地为着这个国家来祷告。

不是只有基督徒才能祷告。只要你是诚心诚意的，上帝必会垂听。

我们在天上的父，愿人都尊你的名为圣，愿你的国降临，愿你的旨意行在地上如同行在天上。

你爱世上的每一个人，你的眼目看顾我们世人。对不起天父，你是如此的爱我们，我们却一次又一次地把你赶出我们的生活。这两个月，地震消息接踵而来，叫我们消化不了，也叫我们心中不安，也不知该怎样祷告！

如今我们站在你面前，为这次日本地震海啸灾难，来呼求你施行怜悯，尽管山河变色、家园破碎，我们相信你仍然爱每一位，相信你向我们所怀的意念是赐祝福的意念，不是降灾祸的意念。求你伸出大能的膀臂，成为每一位受困者的拯救。我们的神，求你把每一位都抱在你的怀中，因为唯有在你怀中才是最稳妥的、最安全的，每当他们为着他们失去的家园、财产、亲人而感到难过伤心时，求你成为他们的力量，使他们因倚靠你而能支撑的下去，有活下去的勇气。天父，你要亲自成为孤儿寡妇、丧亲者的父亲！你应许大山可以挪开、小山可以迁移，但你的慈爱永远不离开他们，愿你在此刻向他们显为真实，抚慰他们的伤痛。

我们的神，因你过去，现在到永远都是不改变的神，你不愿一人失落沉沦，你愿意人人都得救，求你此刻成为每一位救难人员心中的引导，指示他们哪里有生还者需要搭救，并在每一位救难人员身边设立保护的盾牌，使他们所配戴的救难器械、饮用水、食物都是不缺乏且坚固的，赐他们体力与智慧能有效救出每一位等待救援的居民。求你赐下生存的盼望和气息给那些还未被发现的受灾者，使他们能支撑得住直到被寻见。

我们此刻要为日本的朋友与弟兄姐妹祷告，求你赐下极深的安慰与医治，勇气与盼望给每一位伤心的日本朋友与弟兄姐妹，求天父你靠近他们，每一晚当他们闭上眼睛，满脑思想地震海啸而心里惊恐时，天父你要作他们的高台和避难所，止息他们心里的风浪，赐下安定的力量。

我们的神，求你发命使每座山、每条河、每个土地都服在你的权能中，没有任何崩塌、落石、断岩的危险发生，求你掌权日本四围的气流，有利于救灾。神啊，我们仰望你的怜悯，我们仰望你使我们有回转更新的机会，我们求你纪念。我们不过是人，不过是一根草、一块泥，早晨发芽生长、晚上割下枯干，我们仰望你是我们的创造主，是日本是台湾是这世界的创造主。求你记念这为你荣耀造作的子民，使我们回转，掩面不看我们的罪孽，赐我们有清洁的心，重新有正直的灵。能走上你为我们所预备的命定之福。

我们这样祷告，奉主耶稣基督的名求，阿们！

- 祷告文摘自http://blog.udn.com/7714/4971825 -

生日感言

2010-12-23T00:47:00.000-08:00

生日的前几天，我的心底突然冒出一股的恐惧感。12月23号的脚步越渐逼近，我越想拔腿就抱。

我也不知道为什么。

肯定的是，我绝对不是一个介意年龄 / 怕变老的女生。

恐惧的，是12月23号这个日子。

曾经我很期待这一天的到来，常常都会以很兴奋的心情去迎接。因为我是一个很会做梦的人，管它现实不现实，我就是喜欢去想象。可能过去几年，总是抱着很大的期许而又往往落了空。结果，期望越大，失望越大... 所经历到失望，在不知不觉中累积了起来... 造成我越来越害怕有任何的期待。然而，与生俱来那种爱做梦的本质，总是会不断地作祟... 唆使我去幻想。

所以，唯有逃... 远离这一天，我才不会被失落感灼伤。

但是，怎么可能逃的掉呢。所以终究，我还是在亲朋戚友的祝贺声中，跨入了25岁的门槛。

谢谢大家的祝福!! =)

我深知自己很蒙恩，有爱我的上帝、家人、和很多朋友们... 今早一起来，我就为着自己可以活到25岁而向上帝感恩。在这个的世代，可以生存并不是一件理所当然的事。我们根本不知道什么时候会遭遇不测... 所以为着我现在能拥有的，我打从心底感谢上帝 =)

常常有人会质问，我们是父母生的又不是上帝生的，为什么基督徒总是感谢神感谢神。的确，我是从母腹出来的。但我虽是父母生的，我生命的主权是在于上帝。是他，把我放在这个家庭... 是他，赐给我有那么好、爱我、负责任感的父母亲。我是家中的长女。但据我所知，在我出世之前，我的妈妈曾经有过一次的流产。当我知道这件事的时候，我第一个想法是：原来我有哥哥 / 姐姐的!! （因为我常常很羡慕别人有哥哥姐姐照顾他们，而我没有... ）然后常常把这话挂在嘴边。后来，妈妈忍不住对我说，“如果有他/她，就不会有你了啦~！” （因为妈妈是在流产后才怀我的... ）我仿佛被雷劈中 o.O 从此，我再也不跟人家说其实我有哥哥/姐姐这种不逻辑的话。

前几天，我打电话给爸爸问他一些事情。他突然提起，23号是你的生日咧，你不要回来“做”（庆祝）生日啊~ 然后一直叫我和ahfai安排时间回去，他们为我庆祝生日... 可是因为ahfai要工作所以这是不可能的事，所以我告诉他我不能回... 挂电话前，爸爸还提前祝我生日快乐。盖上手机，心里满满的感动... 也有很多的内疚。总是很自责，那么大了还要爸爸妈妈来照顾我关心我，而不是我去孝敬他们...

谢谢我最亲爱的爸爸妈妈。谢谢你们一直以来给我的支持... 尤其我现在选择的这条路，坎坷而又不讨好，你们却从来没有叫我放弃，反而常常想办法给我意见、甚至愿意提供我资金... 真的很谢谢你们 =) 二十五年了。我必须承认我不是一个好的孩子，没有尽心尽意地去服事你们... 反而要你们来关心我。成为你们的孩子... 是我这一生中最大的感恩 =) =)

谢谢ahfai... 我知道你很难过，不能陪我过今年的生日。虽然有些许的失望，但我还是要学习去体谅你的难处。生日本来就不是什么大不了的事... 更重要的是，我看到你的用心和诚意 =) 就像你写的msg一样，期待我们可以一起度过生命的每一天，直至回天家 =) =)

谢谢大家，陪我度过今年的生日。12月23号，不算什么... 12月25号的那个生日，才是我们应当欢庆/祝贺的。因为，有个救主，为我们诞生了 \o/

中毒记

2010-12-01T08:21:00.000-08:00

以前看到别人打点滴的时候总是会觉得很好奇，这样放着... 又没有吸... 那个水是怎么流进去的啊？而且，针筒这样插着... 不是会很痛吗？常常抽血的时候，不过被针筒插着几十秒的时间就已经觉得不舒服了，更何况是几个小时呀...

终于，我的好奇心被满足了 =.=

=.=

这次的食物中毒真是让我们几个人痛不欲生。一直得奔波于房间和厕所，很累了还要被腹痛折磨到无法入睡 =(

提到这个事故，我想，是时候让关心我们的朋友们了解整件事情的来龙去脉。其实很多朋友一听到我们食物中毒，都会立刻抛出几个同样的问题：你们到底吃了什么？在那里吃的？那个地方是不是很不干净？

唉。OK。故事是这样的。话说上个星期四...... （开始陷入回忆的漩涡）

难得远在古晋工作的忠诚大哥远道而来吉隆坡公干，我们决定召集大学时期的好友们出来举筷叙旧闲聊作乐。可惜大部分的朋友们都很忙，结果，最后真正能够出席聚餐的只有六个人。（现在回想起来我不禁感恩，试想想如果大家都出席，那个集体食物中毒的场面会何其浩大呀~）基于对环境和餐费的考量，我（是的，就是我 T.T）决定把聚餐地点定在SS2的天品餐馆。一来那里的环境看似清幽，适合聚餐；二来听说那里的食物不错，而且价格合理，不会很贵。

于是当晚8点-9点间，我们六人陆续抵达天品餐馆，并且点了一桌满满的美食......：

1. 炒猪肠粉 x 2
2. 炒鱼面肠粉
3. 天品面卜
4. 咖哩面
5. 迷你锅贴 x 2盘（一盘8个）
6. 肠粉腐竹卷 x 2盘（一盘5个）
7. 不同的糖水（这个... 应该不会是问题的根源吧？）

虽然各自点了不同的食物，但是抱着有福同享（所以后来也就理所当然地有“毒”同当）心态的我们还是把食物分着吃。我尝一口你的汤、你尝一口我的面... 惟有ahmi因为已经在家吃饱了，所以只是专注于她的糖水，没有多吃其他的。结帐时，忠诚坚持要作东。盛情难却，我们只好由得他。但是脑子一转，我（是的，又是我 T.T）兴奋地show出早前朋友给我的优惠卷，然后建议大家到附近的《甜品哥哥》吃餐后甜点，并且由我们来请忠诚。于是晚上10点，大家兴致勃勃地前往《甜品哥哥》，准备和美食来个第二回合的大作战。然而我们一翻开menu后，马上就让那令人目不暇给的甜品单占上了风。大家三心两意的想吃这个又想试那个... 最后，总算还是战胜了诱惑，大家一咬牙，作出了最后决定 :

1. 焦糖布丁
2. 芒果布丁
3. 杨枝甘露豆腐花
4. 水晶宫
5. 花生糊+番薯
6. 榴莲忘返
7. 椰汁西米露
8. 白雪黑珍珠

好不容易终于将桌上所有的甜品都扫得干干净净，大家的肚子也变得鼓鼓胀胀的。想到隔天是星期五，还得上班... 大家只好忍痛结束了这次的聚餐。殊不知，这个结束竟是我们噩梦的开始......

凌晨4 点多，我因为胃部绞痛而醒过来。随着胃越来越痛... 竟然作呕的感觉涌上心头。我马上冲去厕所。后来没有吐，可是就这样，来来回回于房间和厕所好几次... 而且每次一回到床上，胃就会开始作痛。当时的我以为自己吃得太饱，所以引起胃胀气（我的胃常常都有这样的问题，所以我不能吃太多），只好含着眼泪默默承受这样的后果。结果这样的情况维持了3个小时，直到我应该起床的时间，还是不见好转。我开始发急，因为当天有重任在身，应当8点到教会预备一些东西。后来联络了ahfai，我更急了。他说他觉得自己食物中毒... 又吐又泻。那我到底是胃胀气还是食物中毒呀?!?! >.< 这个先不管，得想想教会那里该怎么办。感谢上帝，最后总算找到人代替我的岗位（谢谢ahming & kim!!!）

接下来的情景，大家可想而知。病得迷迷糊糊的ahfai开车去买了两支100plus （我很佩服他那时候还会知道自己需要什么），然后来到我家就倒在客房的床上起不来了。而我勉强去给他开了门后，也马上回房瘫在床上。后来，ahfai的哥哥志明接到电话后，和他的未婚妻Elaine来载我们去看医生。我脱水、ahfai发烧，两人四肢无力。看完医生回到家，吃了药又各自昏迷了。下午还好 bro John和雪娥姐回到家了，有他们留意我们的病况。雪娥姐告诉我们，原来陛珠姐也出现同样的症状，而且还被送进了医院 @.@ 我急忙sms 另外的两个弟兄ken和忠诚，才得知他们也食物中毒了。哇。集体食物中毒哦。晚上醒过来，感觉比较好了，于是我和ahfai 两人勉强吃完他哥哥买来的粥... 然后ahfai开车回家。（雪娥姐说的对，真的不该让ahfai回家，结果没有人关注到他的病情加重 T.T）

第二天，ahfai又再迷迷糊糊的开车来我家。他晕沉+不稳的脚步让雪娥姐看出了不妥，加上发现他还在发烧，雪娥姐就决定请kim他们帮忙送ahfai进医院。于是kim和OKA急急从教会赶来我家。（由于当时我昏睡着，不知道还有谁来 >.< ）就这样，ahfai进了马大医院，雪娥姐和bro john带了学生们去开始短宣... 剩下我一个人在家 o.O 还好有个体贴的妹妹，搭巴士来到我家，还买来了我需要的葡萄糖和白面包 *感激+感动* 不久后收到ahfai的sms，说他高血压（?! 其实是低血压啦 =.=）和指甲发青，吓得我半死... 问他到底怎么回事又没收到他的回复。之后傍晚接到Elaine的电话，她说医生认为ahfai的情况实在严重，所以建议我们这些其它的中毒者们也最好到医院作个检查。于是我乖乖的去了医院。在等看病的当儿，Elaine向我解释了ahfai的病况。原来下午的他，毒素已经侵入他的肾脏，才会导致指甲发青。那病菌怎么那么毒!! 所以后来医生把他转入另一间病房，禁止任何人进去探望他...（其实是emergency hall里的其中一间病房，不是ICU那么严重... 对不起大家，我也不知道自己怎么会把它说成是ICU。原本还不知觉，后来发现大家听到ICU都很紧张，还说要戴东西才可以进去... 一头雾水的我才发现自己应该是说错了 >.< 对不起!!! 害大家瞎担心一场 >.< ）之后陛珠姐也被送到医院，听说虚弱的她情况比ahfai更严重，一到紧急部门就被推进病房里了。

这时候，Wendy和 Ignatius带着两个小孩特地来医院探望我们... 还在候诊部陪了我好一段时间。真的真的很感动 >.< 谢谢你们~~ 等了两个小时，总算到我了。医生说其实我看来没什么大碍，可是既然我两个朋友的病况都较严重，他们不敢掉以轻心... 所以还是为我验血和照x光。打点滴是必然的... 因为那时的我有脱水现象和轻微的发烧。躺在床上，我望着那包点滴，心想怎么滴得那么慢... 好像永远都滴不完似的 T.T 打一下电话、接一下电话、type一下sms... 时间总算过去了一半。然后妹妹和伟雄就出现了。他们买了粥来。稀奇的是之前完全没有胃口的我，那时候竟然有很饿、很想吃东西的冲动，于是就吃了一点粥。他们离开后，Elaine就来陪我... 聊聊一下，点滴也在不知不觉中打完了。原本有点开心的说可以回家了，怎知护士过来量了体温后说我还有点发烧，要我吃两粒药丸，然后打第二包点滴... o.O 我只好乖乖躺下，继续吊完第二包水。期间，志明和Elaine向我描述ahfai被转去的另一间病房的情况。据他们说，里面的病人身上都接了很多仪器，ahfai的仪器是最少的了。而且在这些的病人当中，有些还是看似随时都会离开世界的那种。我听得莫名其妙... 后来在离开医院前去探望ahfai，一踏入那间病房，我不禁要说志明他们形容得... 很... 贴切 =.= 总共4个病人，除了ahfai以外，其余3个都是年事已高、已经无法自主的老人... >.<

昨天早上起来，我还是觉得不舒服，也频频泻肚子。后来去医院去作第二次检查，医生说我的血压和温度正常，肚子痛和泻肚子只是必然的... 这样的情况起码会维持至少一星期的时间。但是我泻肚子超过了十次，照理说，我已经得被送进病房。然而这个医生很开明，他让我选择要不要进病房，要不要吊水（他说，“一包吊三个小时... 两包就六个小时咯，不会很久啦。不过hor, 一包水500ml两包水1liter，你喝的话，一下子就喝完了。那你要不要吊水？” =.=||| 当然不要啦~）我说不要，他也一副很乐意的样子... 只是要我签一张文件，表示不住院是我个人的意愿。我就签了咯。不知道是不是因为看医生前和看医生后，我一直在Emergency hall 和 Menara Utama 走上走下，走到最后要离开医院时，我竟然觉得自己精神好多，没什么事了。晚上，担心我们不能吃外面食物的KanHin和Vincci特地拿了粥来给我当晚餐... 还带来了米和肉给我煮粥。*感激*

至于ahfai，他昨天的病况比较不稳定，一直还在发烧，昏昏沉沉的... 也没什么胃口。（后来晚上才勉强进食一点）今天下午去看他的时候，他看似好多了，可以聊上比较长的时间，而且可以下床走动。只是他进出厕所的时候得推着那个挂着点滴的架子，很不方便。我很怕那条管子会不小心被拉到还是怎样，弄痛他的手 >.< 刚才晚上再次到医院时，他看起来精神更好了... 吃了比较多粥。*感谢神* =)

我知道很多朋友都很关心ahfai现在的情况，所以刚才离开前，拍下了他的招牌笑容（当然是用手机拍的），希望大家看了可以放心 =P

中毒的这几天都接到很多的电话和sms，真的很抱歉... 让大家为我们紧张+担心了 :( 尤其是我们的爸爸妈妈... >.< 没有人比他们更为我们着急了。很谢谢大家的关心，特地抽空来医院探访我们、频频为我们的病情祷告、打电话 sms 鼓励我们... 这些的恩典我实在数算不来，愿神亲自报答你们的爱心 <3

星期六那天原本很挣扎说要不要回居銮参加隔天表哥的婚礼... 去年已经错过了堂哥的婚礼，实在不愿意又再错过魏家这个难得的庆典 :( 心想可能休息到下午三点，我的情况比较好了后可以开车到芙蓉，然后由伟雄接着开车回到居銮。可是当ahfai一被送进医院，我就知道我们无法回居銮参加这场婚宴的了。还好家人都体谅，也要我们留在这里好好养病。虽然觉得很遗憾，可是大难当前... 也实在无计可施。对不起 Allon表哥 =( 下次... 下次仕洪堂哥的婚礼我们一定一定出席~~~~

虽然我在肉体上的所受的折磨并没有他人来得多，可是精神上... 着实让我觉得有点崩溃。没有工作的期间还要遇上这么严重的病痛，这简直是个玩笑（因为没有医药福利）。不过，回到根本，还是要信靠和顺服神。听起来有点蠢，这样悲惨的情况还说自己的神信实，如果他那么好就不会让我们出事了不是吗？嘿。医生的孩子难道就不会生病哦？我相信神使万事互相效应，叫爱神的人得益处。神从来没有应许说，相信他的人不会受苦。在这个世界上受苦本是必然的，因为这个世界根本不完美。每个人都会受苦，然而不一样的是，我们受苦的当儿，我们的神与我们同在，赐给我们平安和喜乐的心去面对苦境。更重要的是，在他里面有无止境的盼望~那个世界是美好的 =) 其实这次的中毒事件那么严重，大家能够幸存，我真的很感恩。到截稿为止，ahfai和陛珠姐还在住院。真的期盼他们能够快快打败病菌，恢复原有的健康！也但愿其余的我们能够完全脱离泻肚子这个梦魇 =P

啊。对了... 虽说是梦魇，收获还是有的。当当当当~~~

唉哟。我真的不知道该怎么处理这些药... T.T

后记：发现了另一个blog （点击这里），原来元凶是SS2的甜品哥哥!!!!!! 我决定从此杯葛它~~~~ =(

从搭巴士开始的旅程

2010-09-25T11:00:00.000-07:00

打从我很下心丢辞职信的那一天起，我就作好心理准备，接下来的路绝对不容易走。

这是我第二次拍摄婚礼。由于是独自一人回居銮（ahfai要载我回，可是考虑到所将花费的金钱和精神，我坚持一个人回），所以我选择搭巴士。第一次到Bukit Jalil的巴士站，一大堆的帐篷看得我眼花缭乱。买了票后，我四处张望，却怎么也看不到platform 10。在飘着细雨的天空下，我终于凭着我该搭的巴士而找到platform 10，然后才发现原来platform的牌子被帐篷遮挡住了 =.= 渐渐的，淅沥淅沥的雨声开始变得哗啦哗啦。站在帐篷里，提着重重的背包，我告诉自己，逆境让人更成长。

第一天早晨的结婚仪式比我预料中的较早结束。开车去上学的弟弟还没放学... 由于不愿麻烦任何人载送我，所以我请新娘的姐姐载我到我们中学大路边的巴士站，让我搭巴士回家。坐在巴士亭，望着一排排崭新的店屋，和横跨马路的行人天桥，许多“想当年...”的回忆霎时涌上心头。人事境迁，我心中百感交集。等了将近半小时，巴士终于晃啊晃得驶过来。步上巴士，挑了一个靠窗的座位坐下，一种莫名的亲切感顿时油然而生。我真的好久好久没搭这种巴士了，尤其自从有了自己的车。从售票安娣手中接过起了价却印刷依旧的巴士票，我马上很习惯性地往票的右上端瞄去，然后再很快的将号码加起来。22。我微微地一笑。这样的举动也许没什么意义，但就如我所言，这是一种习惯。习惯把号码加起来，看看会不会等于23。

看着巴士票，我的手指很自然的动了起来。凭着印象，我将巴士票折成了一个心型。这是以往我拿到巴士票后总会做的第二件事。

蓝色的心 :)

才拍好照，就发现巴士快到我家了。以前总觉得这10分钟的路程有点远，但在PJ久了，看起来颇近的地方都要耗上10分钟的时间... 而这10分钟对我们在PJ工作的人而言，算是很短了。原来，同样的东西，是会随着人有了不一样的经历，而变得不同。

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刚刚从婚宴回来。一个人抱着相机在全场兜兜转转，还真的挺累的。但我的心中却仿佛放下了一块大石头般，轻松不已。终于我完成了这个不可能的任务。经历了整个过程，感受到上帝满满的恩典和家人朋友们的支持... 我更加坚定于自己前面所要走的路。写下这个blog，为的是要提醒自己... 现在的我可以搭巴士去为梦想踏出第一步，以后的我绝对不可以清高、因为一点小困难就埋怨或放弃。要谦卑地开始，也要谦卑地继续走下去。

这是一段追寻梦想的旅程。没有人会后悔踏上这条路，只会感叹自己太迟跨出这一步。

我，启程了。

My First Photobook!

2010-07-22T03:41:00.000-07:00

Well it's actually not mine... this photobook is belong to brother Joseph's family! But since the book was delivered to my place first so I just grabbed the chance to take some photos of it.

The quality of this photobook is awesome! I've been designing album with hard covers.. this is the first soft cover photobook I've seen. Deeply in love with it =D

For those who hasn't take a look at the photos I took for this family... you can check out my Facebook photo album ya~

I am soooo much thankful for having the chance to design this album and get it printed! =)

Ming & Kim

2010-05-03T23:14:00.000-07:00

After some time, I finally decided the editing style for Ming and Kim's photos which have been taken few weeks ago. She showed me the vintage/retro feel that she loves... so I tried to make it for her. Not sure if this is what she wants, but I kinda like the photos edited. How I get the color editing done? Well... a free photoshop action and little adjustment here and there. I need to have my own unique preset =)

It was a photo shoot outing I had with Phylli, a girl who is also passionate about photography. She already has her nice shots of Ming and Kim posted up on her photoblog!

Kim is one my best girl friends. Both she and her boyfriend, Ming were my ex-coursemates and ex-housemates who served in CCF together with me throughout our years in MMU. Being a trend-setter, Kim owns her online blogshop Trendreport which sells lots of cool stuffs!

Thanks so much to Phylli, Kim and Ming for the outing. The time was short but I did enjoy myself a lots. Hope you enjoyed it too! Sorry for not doing well for this photo shoot... looking forward to the next one ya! Ming shall take photos of me and fai by using his new Canon550D! =D

Joel - Part 01

2010-04-22T04:23:00.000-07:00

Ever since I've got my DSLR camera, I always wanted to ask brother Ignatius and sister Wendy to let me take photo of their lovely boy - Joel. So when I read the message posted by brother Ignatius on my Facebook asking whether I can take photos for Joel, I was overwhelmed!

Joel is a very handsome boy. Look at his photos and you will surely agree with me. There're so much stories I'd love to share with you all about this little boy. But too bad I am not good at writing blog, so I'll just let the photo speak for itself. One thing I must tell you here - I've a great time with this family. The entire photo shooting session was really fun and I am so thankful for having such opportunity =)

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After sis Wendy got the photos, she did some design - putting different photos together and adding texts. I particularly like the following piece. Just a simple and short sentence... but it touches my heart... =)

其实...

2010-03-26T08:07:00.003-07:00

最近，很多人都在对我说同一句话，

“淑婉，你瘦了咧…工作压力很大是吗？”

其实我也是最近看到照片里的自己，才惊觉自己的体形缩水了。常常对体重秤敬而远之的我，这几个星期几乎每天都要站上去一下，确保体重不会再持续下跌，才比较安心。

对于亲戚朋友们提出的疑问，我总是很自然地、很无奈地点头。是啊，工作上面对很大的压力。但是当我仔细去思考的时候，我发现这其实不仅仅是工作上的压力问题造成的…

这四个月以来，很多时候的午餐时间我都是独自留在公司里继续工作的。当然我有吃午餐，但尽都是一些简单的食物 - 椰浆饭、面包、饼干、杂菜饭… 不想和同事们出去，因为他们的午餐偶尔实在太高消费了，一餐可以是十多零吉至二十多零吉不等。和他们一起用餐几次后，我心中开始有了莫名的恐惧和抗拒，渐渐不再和他们出去。

由于我常常都不跟他们出去，他们也习惯了把我当透明的... 不管去哪里都不会叫我一起去。起初我很难受，于是尝试再跟他们出去... 希望可以建立关系。但到了餐厅坐下来，他们都是谈他们的，我依然透明，也插不上嘴。结果，我又退回到自己的空间，而且越来越退缩... 正如我在之前的blog所提的，午餐时间是最好的联谊时光。不一起享用午餐，等同于把自己从团队中隔离。所以我成了这间公司里，一只整天自我隔离的怪物。

我习惯了一个人对着电脑吃午餐。

一个人吃午餐不难受，令我难受的是同事们的眼光。

我不是一个容易对他人敞开内心的人。但和我感情好的朋友们都知道，我可以是一个很多话的人，偶尔还很多废话。我可以玩、也可以闹。但是不知怎的，在这间公司，我就是活泼不起来。他们说笑，我插不进嘴。而我也不知道应该主动和他们说什么。我好像生活在一个跟他们截然不同的世界。如果你偷偷进来观察我一整天，你会觉得我，不是我。

我习惯了保持缄默。

保持缄默不难受，令我难受的是没有可以谈心的对象。

马来西亚真的是一个很特别的国家，马来西亚的华人尤其特别，同样的种族却因着不同的背景而会出现文化上的差异。有者偏向东方的保守文化，有者则倾向西方的开放文化。我不知道文化上的差异会不会造成两个人面对沟通上的问题。又或许是我个人的问题，有几次和同事们谈话，没有交锋点也罢，我竟然抓不到他们要讲什么… 最后只好似懂非懂地笑着说，“Okay……”

我习惯了说Okay。

说Okay不难受，令我难受的是和他们格格不入的对话。

这些问题也许看起来很简单，只要大方一点主动一点就可以了。然而我的性格就是如此不同。如果你是我，和我来自同样的背景、拥有同样的性格，你也会和我一样难受。

我的内心在承受着一种无形的压力。虽然已经渐渐习惯这样的工作环境，但是我还是不自觉有离开的冲动。

这不是我的菜。

抉择

2010-03-21T20:13:00.003-07:00

小学时期，我拥有全国大部分小学生的热门志愿 - 成为老师。

中学时期，听说当会计师签一个名就可以赚很多钱。所以我要当会计师。

后来，从电视机上看到梁智强当导演好威风。我也要当导演。

渐渐的，发现自己对设计的热诚。我开始梦想成为一名室内设计师。

可是，我也很喜欢听人家讲心事然后安慰鼓励他们，觉得自己蛮有潜质的。我有点想读心理学。

中六时期，化学和物理的可怕坚定了我要往艺术界发展的想法。

大学先修班，因为很复杂的原因我转去了马大。痛苦了一星期后我要求爸爸让我回MMU。当时我告诉他，我会努力成为一名有名的设计师。

大学一年级，和同学们拍摄了一部MTV。发现其实当制作人也不错，柴智屏不也这样红的么。

大学二年级，很认真地主修电影及3D动画系。我的终极目标是美国迪斯尼。

大学三年级，讲师给我们看了很多艺术电影，我好喜欢。我开始犹豫到底要专注在电影界还是动画界。

大学毕业了，我觉得自己在Flash方面的知识比较强，所以选择这方面的工作。

半年的训练后，我因为在那家公司看不到前景也学不到东西而决定离开。我告诉他们，我想往3D动画界发展。

还没有开始找工。因为朋友要求帮忙拍摄婚礼的照片，而开始对摄影有了一点点兴趣。

接着就很奇妙的，接到了目前的这份工作，可以学习摄影和制片的技巧。一咬牙，决定试试看。牺牲了在Cyber舒服的日子，一个人到PJ生活。

转眼，已经过了五个月。下个月底合约就期满了。公司提出了续约，我又得面对去或留的选择。

妈妈常说我做事三心两意，总是犹豫不决。的确。有好多事我都很想去做，但是也有很多的限制，让我一直裹足不前。

也许，我不应该有太多顾虑。只要自己开心就好。

要怎样才能让自己开心？

离开这份工，开始自己的摄影事业。一个人慢慢做、慢慢拼。有空闲的时间就做一些社区服务的工作，或参加短宣，把福音带给需要的人们。

没有钱但可以做自己喜欢的事，也可以很满足.你相信吗？

没有钱但可以为他人带来笑容，也可以很快乐。你相信吗？

现在物质主义的社会已经逐渐夺去了我们单纯的梦想。不管你多么不在乎金钱，也没有办法潇洒地像特丽莎修女那样，两袖清风地服侍人群。

我们可以过没有钱的生活，但是我们不能让家人和我们一起过没有钱的生活。就算我们没有钱也可以很快乐，但是我们的家人一点都不会快乐。

在这样的世代，到底应该如何作出生命的抉择？

Bye

2010-02-01T19:27:00.003-08:00

Dear Grandpa,

You'll be missed =(

Short & Quick Update

2010-01-25T18:21:00.003-08:00

It's almost 2 months since I last updated my blog @@ Anyway, here is a very short and quick update about my recent life. Let picture speak for itself.

12th Dec@Cyber Park
Simple photo shooting session with Winter & Stephanie. Quite tiring but we all enjoyed it =) Thanks Winta and Stephie~

2nd Jan@LCCT
Relatives from Hainan, China were leaving Malaysia after been here for 1 week+. We went to airport at 5am in the morning to send them off.

6th Jan@Kuching
After got the stamps from KhaiLing ( as welcome gift to Kuching? :P ), I completed my collection amazingly. *happieeee*
Thanks everyone! =)
7th Jan@Kuching
Abigail was looking into the camera! =D
8th Jan@Kuching Sunny Hills
Tasty homemade ice-cream that you shouldn't miss out if you visit Kuching =)
8th Jan@Kuching Boulevard
I got the little Giraffe finally!! Yay!!
9th Jan@Kuching Golden Arc
CCFers breakfast gathering. Kuching Laksa!
and we celebrated Geraldine's birthday =)

9th Jan@Kuching
I love this picture! Abigail smiles while sleeping =)
me and fai with the baby girl =)
9th Jan@Miri Bintang Plaza
Joyce ( ahfai's niece ) watching Musical Fountain with grandpa.
10th Jan@Miri ahfai's house
Joyce loves my Giraffe.
14th - 17th Jan@DUMC
ChargeUp 2010 by LiveWire Ministry. Awesome conference. Awesome media people. And of course, the most important - Awesome GOD. Thanks Grace & Alex for such opportunity.

14th - 25th Jan
Yes. it has taken me such a looong time to finalise the design. This is my entry for Foldees greeting card contest.
Thanks Foldees team for the patient and thanks Penny for the comments given!

Happy Chinese New Year!! =D

I want BIG HEADz!!

2009-12-01T07:43:00.003-08:00

This afternoon I bought something in Guardian. After paid, the cashier gave me a stamp together with the receipt. I was wondering what it is for... then I spotted some cards on the counter which I guess that's where the stamp should be put on. So I asked for it :

Owhhh they're SO CUTE!!!!!!

I WANT THE GIRAFFE!!!!!!

BUT. Err... RM15 for a stamp. I need to collect 40 stamps in order to redeem a FREE plush toy.

RM15 x 40 = RM600

Uhm. It meant that I gotta spend RM600 in Guardian?!?!

Arghhh It's so impossible =(

So pleaseee... whoever is NOT interested in the plush toy... Can give the stamp to me ar? >.< Your help will be so much appreciated. I will...... uhm... let the little girrafe give you a kiss after I got it, ok?? =D

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By the way, it has been 1 month since I joined Integricity. HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY to ShuWan \o/ LoL. Everything is fine... the colleagues are cool / the office is superb / the work is enjoyable / the guardian angel is caring...

Well, I guess the only thing that I am still adjusting myself to the this place is the LUNCH TIME. Aikz. Yea I know the best communication time is during the lunch where everyone can hang out together and have a chit chat while makan. But I just can't make it... it's not that I don't like to join them. The truth is, I need to save $$... Aikz. Life is not easy. Expensive room rental... and can you imagine that only the car parking already cost me RM200 every month? Of course I know that definitely I will have enough money to survive for now... but my new car is reaching soon... dad and mom knew that it gonna be a burden for me so they suggested that dad will pay the loan for me first.

=(

You know... I felt that I am so useless. I've graduated for almost a year yet I can't pay the car loan on my own. Therefore I need to save up so that I can take this burden over. I am one who doesn't like to spend much on food. Some people said that it's worth to spend on nice meals. Ya... Once in a while is ok for me... but I can't have it frequently. So I rather save the money to pay the loan for my car, and also for my dream - a DSLR.

Now the only thing I hope is PTPTN can exempt me from the loan payment. Government please be fair to all the batches.

NEXT POST : CCF binding camp at Dusun Eco!

Blessed =)

2009-11-24T07:24:00.003-08:00

That day before I left Cyber, XiaoBai said that JJ and he got something for me...

A self defense spray!!!

Yippieeee!! I was so happy! Because this is something that I was looking for and longing to buy.

A million THANKS to XiaoBai and JJ for being so thoughtful =)

Recently there's a game called "Guardian Angel" going on in integricity office. *FUN* Yea it is the same as the 小天使小主人 game we used to play in CCF... and some other camps. Since last Wednesday, everyone of us has got our own mortal to take care of.

And today, finally my guardian angel has turned up... in a very unexpected way! I got the email saying that,

"Hi, Wey Shu Wan.
SW Guardian Angel (ShuWanGA) is now following your tweets on Twitter."

@.@ Later on I found that my guardian angel even has a very cool picture in the twitter.

Cute right? =)

Thanks for it angel! What you've done has brightened up my day =)

城市生活

2009-11-17T05:36:00.003-08:00

站在阳台上遥望，璀璨的灯光在黑夜中闪烁... 我想念的却是繁星点缀的夜空。

这是我在PJ工作的第三个星期。越习惯... 就越不想在这个地方继续呆下去。都市的繁华，对我一点吸引力都没有。反之，觉得这是一种吵闹及繁杂。也许因为从小就在僻静的环境中长大，我对一点点的喧哗都会觉得很反感。尤其下雨时，那哗啦啦的雨声更是让我眉头紧锁。

成长的过程中，总是会对未来有不同的憧憬。觉得自己可笑的是，从梦想自己成为有江山事业、跨国越海的大女人，到现在打了个U-turn，只想成为隐蔽在深山中、与世无争的小女人。

走在 shopping mall 里，看着络绎不绝，穿着高档的人群... 我觉得好陌生。总觉得自己走进一个错的空间，不属于我的世界。舞池中的摇摆，畅饮后的欢笑，对城市人而言，也许这就是生活的享受。在霓虹灯下的红男绿女们眼中，我们这些工作后就足不出户的... 算是土包子吧? 土包或豆沙包都好，生活水准越高... 我就越想往回钻。

我没有期待自己可以穿上名牌的大衣，也不奢望自己可以踏入高级的餐厅。如果有选择，我宁可回到居銮工作。我一直跟ahfai说，以后我不要留在KL。我真的好想到朴素的小地方生活，不论居銮或美里。没有有气派的大房子，没有豪华的大汽车... 我不介意。只要一家人可以平安开心地一起生活，没有缺乏，已经没什么好要求的了。

上星期早上出门工作时，在门口遇见隔壁的uncle正抱着一岁或两岁大的孙女走着回来。Uncle很友善，跟他孙女说姐姐去做工，还叫她跟我byebye :) 而每次放工回来，经过他家时... 都会闻到诱人的香味，看到厨房里的auntie正忙着做菜。我猜想，孩子工作... 所以把父母接过来住吧。妈妈曾开玩笑说，以后我们的工作稳固了... 就接他们来这里住。啊，我才不要。连我都不想呆下去了，他们又怎会适应呢。而且住在城市一点都不自在，出门得考虑是否会遇上塞车的时段，处处又得提防成为罪犯的对象，没有大自然的鸟鸣声... 车鸣声倒是像首交响曲......

看来，我真的很不喜欢这个地方。

但。为了经验，为了一技之长，为了奠定未来生活的基础... 目前的我还是必须叹一口气，继续不情愿地跟随这繁忙的生活节奏。

有些人注定在一辈子活在城市里。然而还有些人，像我，每天都在倒数，期待着离开城市的那一天。

祝福

2009-11-11T08:55:00.003-08:00

千头万绪，但却理不出完整的文章。紊乱，却又空白。

我没有想到这一天会来得这么快。

是你自己说没这么快的。说真的，有种被骗的感觉 =.=

不管怎样，这终究是个喜讯。能够看到好朋友找到属于自己的幸福，我一直在期待的，不就是这一天么？

泛黄的回忆，已经不堪回首。但感恩的是我们谁也都不曾让它蒙上厚厚的尘灰。有时候在想，我们算是好朋友吗？面对面倾心聊天的次数有多少... 透过文字的表达似乎比言语更多。

曾经有一句话，你让我觉得很感动。你说，你很珍惜我们的这份友情。其实，我也很珍惜。也许，我比你更珍惜。因为这份友情是我用心去换回来的。我不知道中四中五那两年你所做过的有多少，但是至少有这么一年半，你的名字都是我日记里的一部分。当中的酸甜苦辣，唯有我自己知道。

真的很想念那段青涩的过去，两个人都傻乎乎的，却也很认真很小心翼翼地呵护所拥有的友情...

时间真的过得好快。

我在想，到了那天看到你穿着西装站在人生幸福的舞台上时，我会不会开心到哭...

谢谢你为这份友情所曾付出的。能够和你结识并成为好朋友... 一路来所经历的，我都向上帝感恩。但愿你步上新的人生旅途后，我们依然会是惺惺相惜的好朋友 :)

我会出席你的婚礼。因为我要目送你搭上这趟幸福列车，给你我最深的祝福 :)

我的第一天

2009-11-04T05:35:00.003-08:00

第一天。我喜欢这间公司!

工作就先别提，因为目前我不是很喜欢这样长时间对着电脑重复同样的动作。希望明天的外景拍摄能让我有新的体会 :)

一直都听朋友说这间公司很好，他们尝试申请都没有收到回应... 曾经，我也是。一封简历寄出去后就石沉大海。原本不再抱任何希望，离开BillAdam后也没什么打算。怎知却意外接获这个工作机会... 实在是上帝的恩典。虽然只是6个月的合约，但我深信这段时间一定可以学到很多摄影知识和技巧 :)

第一天，我的上司笑嘻嘻地交给我一个大信封，说是公司欢迎我的一份礼物。一打开，里头有2张礼券 --> 我可以向两个同事换取一支舞蹈。哈。一张美食名单... 叫我务必要去尝试这些KL和PJ出名的美食。
还有一大堆的小产品，据 checklist 说...

牙膏牙刷 -- 留在公司熬夜赶工需要的；

“以罗” -- 以防吃太多美食后消化不良；

口香糖 -- 避免吃东西后的口臭；

止痛药 -- 有些工作可能会让我很头痛；

三合一咖啡 -- 提供我一整天工作的精力；

很可爱吧？呵呵。这真的是间很有创意的公司... 虽然只是给员工的礼包，但是都做得很正式很精致 :) 厨房总会有人负责添购饮料和零食... 同事们也会带零食来和全公司的人分享。总之呢，在这里工作是绝对不会饿死的。

第一天。我不喜欢这个地区!!

房子高级一点，车子大辆一点，衣服名牌一点，讲英文多一点... 就仿佛是个高阶层人士，不把别人放在眼里 :( 我还是喜欢小地方... 想念车辆稀疏的 Cyber，也想念居銮。对PJ这个地方，我只能说，“不是我的菜!”

今天一回到房间，就觉得好难过... 那股难受，和当初转到马大念书的感觉是一样的。百般不情愿留在这个地方，只想着要回Cyber。不知道自己可以撑多久。真的宁可花钱每天来回Cyber和PJ... 塞车就塞车吧，至少回到家有朋友的温暖... 不像在这里，我只知道屋主的名字... 才和另一间房的屋友打过一次照面。冷冰冰的 :(

想念ahfai :( 虽然前几个月也是在一个Cyber一个PJ的情况下度过.... 但是这次真的很不一样，因为我是单独一个人在这里。:(
不管怎样，ahfai说的对... 我不是孤单的，上帝一直与我同在。前几天真的很难过，很多的害怕和担心... 不论 ahfai 怎么安慰我都没办法让我卸下这些的忧虑。从小到大，妈妈都说我很会杞人忧天... 实际上我也真的是这样。结果在收拾时，看到了自己在书展上买的一张卡，原本是想留着... 有需要时用它来鼓励身边的人。没想到，却用在自己身上了。

“我深信主总在你身边时刻坚固你的心”

“你不要害怕因为我与你同在。不要惊慌因为我是你的神。我必坚固你我必帮助你我必用我公义的右手扶持你” - 以赛亚书 41:10

现在的我，深刻体会到... 亲人和朋友都不在的时候，唯有上帝是一直陪伴在旁的。

谢谢你，上帝 :)

Blog Combo

2009-10-07T07:34:00.003-07:00

I know it has been very looooooooooong time that I didn't update my blog.

WHY??

Malas lo =P So now I blog everything in one go. Combo XD

Ever since I finished my so-called "training" in BillAdam, I was busy for a freelance job. Once the job was done, I went back Kluang for 1 week... Here are those BEST things! >>

1. Went to my GRANDPARENTs' house at BatuPahat to celebrate for my grandma's birthday... So happy! Usually I only get to visit my grandparents once or twice in a year. Even though can't communicate with them much because I can't speak Hokkien well, I treasure the moment with them...

2. Celebrated my MUMMY's birthday!! Hohoho. Enjoy the time with my beloved family...

3. Met up with FRIENDS!! Yeay! In Kluang, I yumcha with PeiChian, KaiLoon, HaoWei, AhYap, YihWei. On the day I back to KL, I met up with PeiLing, AhTuan, LuYean, ChizXian.. WOW. It's so happy to meet them up... my dearest friends in STABK =D

After my holiday in Kluang ended, I just simply lepak in Cyber. Everyday sleep gao gao. But still, I have quite some tasks to be completed... Giving helping hands to people around... design this and that. I plan to shoot a video during these 2 weeks but I don't even have time to start on it. Sad =(

Actually I felt kinda lost after I have ended my last job. I kept thinking how I should move on. I love doing animation... but there's no such vacancy around Cyberjaya area. Somemore I was quite hesitating whether to take a job that I need to sit in front of PC for long hours. Hence, browsing the job matches from lina@jobstreet.com, JenJOBs.com, JobsDB everyday, I still cannot make decision which job to apply. Everytime watching the video posted in Facebook (especially those pre-wedding film), I was thinking how nice it would be if I can be a photographer or videographer...

I can only pray. Pray for God's guidance. I believe He has the BEST job for me.

THEN!!

NOW, A job has been offered to me miraculously. LoL. I was really surprised as I never think that I would be given such opportunity. I can do animation as I like ( but not 3D cartoon... ) and I don't have to be in front of the PC for loooong hours. What's more... I can learn to take photography and shoot video!! Weeee \o/

BUT as everyone know, it's IMPOSSIBLE to travel from Cyber to PJ everyday. So the sad thing is, I need to move to PJ. I need to leave Cyberjaya... awhhhh =( Sien lo... ahfai just finished his internship at PJ and now I have to go PJ working =.=

ANYWAY. I decided to go for it. Give a try. I think most likely I will in love with this job =) Wish me luck k! =)

Ohya by the way, this is the website of my company-to-be. Check it out if you are curious what my new job is! =) *click here*

Last, I am doing a couple T design. The rabbit design is done. Now I need to go for printing... on the transfer paper... then iron on the clothes. This couple T will be put for sale. I wonder anyone would buy it >.< Whatever. If can't sell it then just keep it for myself lol!

Stay tune!

2009-09-16T06:33:00.003-07:00

我仍要仰望我的神

2009-09-04T01:21:00.003-07:00

我仍要仰望我的神

默想经文：诗62; 赛40:31

我也会感到疲惫
偶尔也会觉得累
当世界开始变得有点灰
我也会停止去追

想到不能入睡
不要以为无所谓
但我仍要来仰望我的神
寻求他我的盼望

Chorus
我的心你要来称颂耶和华
我的灵来仰望他
因他是我坚固堡垒我的磐石
赐我力量我不动摇

我的心你要默默无声等待
专等候耶和华
因他是我避难所我的安慰
他必使我重新得力
如鹰展翅上腾
他必擦干我泪水
有他我不孤单

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这是天匙敬拜赞美团第三张专辑《合一敬拜》
里面每一首歌都很好很好听
很感恩得到这片CD

反复地听着每一首歌
而这首歌
尤其描写出了我的心情

这几个星期实在有点疲惫
好多个周末没有好好地休息了
身体上的疲劳可以透过睡眠来补充
但是心灵上的疲惫却不能

我知道是时候休息了
我要来仰望我的神
我要再次从他那里得力

不明白

2009-08-25T01:40:00.003-07:00

我知道种族之间不应该有任何隔阂
但有时
我真的无法了解他们的幽默
无法融入他们的笑声

更不明白
为什么可以拼命地发牢骚数说对方的不是
突然又可以和对方亲密聊天哈哈大笑
对方走后
笑脸马上消失

这就是所谓的面具吗？

每个人都会有的
面具？

好想快点离开...

Wonder-Bots

2009-08-23T16:59:00.003-07:00

You probably know this...

Wonder Girls from Korea

So how about this...

Wonder-Bots from Malaysia

It's from my latest greeting card design on Foldees.com.

Check it out...

This is the card that I have spent 3-4 days on
Because I am not so good at vector coloring...
it was killing me =(

Some commented that my robot looks like Transformer.
I do take its shape as reference but I done the details all by myself.

Er. NO I am not gonna to swear about this.

Simply let your 'Yes' be 'Yes,' and your 'No,' 'No'; anything beyond this comes from the evil one. -- Matthew 5:37

You will see the differences when you really take both to compare =)

Oh ye. Remember the FREE Foldees card that I got?
*click here for the post*

Get ONE for your love one too.
There're so many nice cards in Foldees.com.
Don't miss such great offer alright?

Rate for my card just as you think it worth.
Click the picture below to start! =)

怀念中...

2009-08-21T00:48:00.003-07:00

最近在Facebook找回很多小学同学... 很开心。因为真的和他们失去联络好久好久了... =) 一个个都变帅变漂亮了, 要不是藉着名字，真的还认不出他们哪... =P

但是，找回了他们，也想起了回忆里的他...
在小学的Facebook group中看到他姐姐的留言，才知道原来已经一年了。

好快... 他已经离开我们一年了 =(

记得去年收到妹妹SMS的那一刻，我真的愣住了。我不能接受那是一个事实。我从来没有想到会有朋友就这样从我的人生中默默地消失离开。那时的我真的好难过好难过... 虽然很久没有联络，但我一直期待着和大家重逢，包括他。

我的小学是最小型的华小... 人数不多。每一班级只有一班。所以，20多个人就这样从一年级同班到六年级，加上来自同一个新村，所以都还蛮熟络的。不是很记得小学时发生的事情，但是每一个人，我都记得...

真的好希望什么事情都没有发生过，27个人，一起再回到小学... 无忧无虑地在一起玩...

2007年10月29日，是我最后一次见到他... 他先打电话来找我爸爸，那个电话是我接听的... 心里估计应该是他。如果那天我没有那股勇气走出去和他打招呼，我一定会抱憾一生。其实那天我很高兴看到他，虽然只是短短的那一刹那...

当晚我还兴致勃勃地把那一个片段写下。然而一年后，就收到了他车祸身亡的噩耗 =(

“刚才一位小学同学来我家

要向我爸爸拿一些资料

是一个很久很久没见也没联络的小学同学

他站在铁门外

我妈妈拿给他

我犹豫要不要出去打招呼

毕竟真的很久没见了

最后

我还是鼓起勇气走到门口

跟他招招手

他注意到也向我招手”

2008年8月21日。
景生，永在我们的怀念中 =(

UKM Convo

2009-08-20T02:22:00.003-07:00

CONVO again. Endless convo post =.= I got one more post regarding my pre-convo le...

Last weekend, I went to UKM TWICE... just for friends' convo. And this is also the reason I asked my parents to let me drive the kelisa here... =P

It's kinda tiring... to go there for less 1 hour then left. Somemore it was crowded... and 12pm-1pm the weather so HOT!! Anyway I think it worth me to go there because I've met up with many friends who I haven't seen them for very very loooong time.

--------- 15th August 2009 ---------

Today is BenDan's convo only... But I still went there JUST for him. Why? Because he is my good good friend... we known each other through mIRC 9 years ago yet we can maintain our friendship even till today! Cool uh? :)

The little sunflower + bear bear for BenDan Chi Hou

Me and ahfai :)

with TeeeeeShouHorng.. one of my good friends in Kluang :)

with HuiYun! BenDan's sweet dear :)

This is BEN DAN LAWYER!!! Yeah. Graduated lo!!
He told me he wanna be Hakim Negara one day... I am waiting for the day coming

-------- 16th August 2009 --------
Too late reaching there so didn't manage to buy convo gifts for them =(

with ahpow - next class schoolmate in Form6 XD

with WeiHar -- She was there to attend friends' convo as well.
A very very gentle girl... which I think it's impossible for me to make it =P

with DeXing. Imposter!! Haha.
I thought I was funny enough to wear my robe for my Pre-convo in MMU
Yet he has Post-Convo in UKM lagi!! Really make me speechless...

with YewSen -- my Champion debate team mate during Form6!! Haha
That time I didn't want to participate one... but he kept persuading me =.=

with KaFang -- She is a nicee girl. Love to talk to her.. =D
she is caring to girls but sometimes cruel to guys =P

with WeeHeng and CheePing.
WeeHeng -- KaFang's dear.
Didn't really talk to him much during Form6 as he is a very quiet man...
CheePing -- My primary + secondary + Form6 school mate =D

CONGRATES friends!! We are starting a new journey together...
*also for friends gradauted from UM, UPM, UTM.... Hurray!!*

It's up for vote!

2009-08-17T06:57:00.003-07:00

Remember my "Little Adults" t-shirt designs? *click here for the post*

This afternoon... out of sudden, I decided to submit the design to The101Clothing.com. It was reviewed in a very short time that I found the designs have been accepted and uploaded for vote now already!

I don't really have confidence with this design actually... kept thinking it could be done better. But whatever, if you like it... please give it a vote okay? If it gets the highest vote and been selected, maybe you gonna see it in shopping mall one day =P

*click here to vote for the couple Tee*

*click here to vote for this little Boy design*

OK. So how about my "transformer"? Well to be frank with you guys, I was really exhausted in producing it... *argh* No it's not 1 robot k... the design consists total of... 12 robots!! =.= BUT anyway some of them are actually just the same pose.. so copy and paste saje lah =P I have been spending my weekends on it and on my friends' convo at UKM. Kesian ahfai... I didn't have much time to teman him *sorry*

Wondering how my next Foldees greeting card is going to look like? Uhm... it is actually now waiting for the feedback. I can only get to know whether it will be up for rating on 22nd August. So stay tune to Foldees.com alright?

Here let u guys have a peep on the main character first...
Don't laugh at it pleaseeeeee... =( I am a girl who seldom watch robot cartoons and movies la!! It's already a MIRACLE that I can complete the robot design ok...

Hope I can get the feedback from Foldees soon so I can refine the design.

c.a.r

2009-08-13T07:09:00.003-07:00

Many friends have been asking me about my WSW 1225. It's time to update everyone about this.

Ahem ahem.

I told my mum regarding the WSW. That was the time also I asked my mum to let the little Kelisa with me in KL first before my little brother learn driving. She broke my dreams... by asking me not to buy car... and dad might need to use the little Kelisa in Kluang

:(

Yea kinda dissapointed. That day I was in the van.. on the way back from Church. Looking out from the windows, I kept praying to God... asked for His words to comfort me. And I told God, I will be obedient to His will. even if I can't get WSW... can't have car to drive here...

After I reached home, mum called me that dad allowed me to drive my little Kelisa here!!! *wow* Praise God! One week later, she called me again in the early morning and told me, dad has bought the WSW for me!!!

BUT. It's NOT 1225. Because dad didn't know that I want the combination of mine and ahfai's birthday date. Anyway I am happy enough to have WSW as my car plate alphabets! =D

Another BUT. I am not getting a Navy Blue MyVi as I dreamt. Dad has chosen the model for me... dang dang dang dang!! Here come the TEASER =.=
Hehehehe. Can guess it?

Well. I was just informed few days ago, that my dad will buy the car by the end of this month. *Oh Nooooooooo* It was so scary to hear that!! It means that I need to pay the car loan soon... What's more? it means that I must have constant monthly pay in order to pay the car loan!! So? I have to get a full time job!! argh... GG... x.x I used to dream so much about the car and now, I wish that it won't come so soon... sob sob

After all, let it be. God is my provider. Nothing I should be worrying about. :)

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So now? The kelisa is with me in Cyber. I got it on Tuesday and the next day, I drove alone to Kelana Jaya alone to fetch ahfai.

How BRAVE I am.

This is my FIRST TIME driving ALONE to KELANA JAYA. @.@ I kept praying to God for protecting me. Really have to thanks God for the safe journey... :)

These few days I was driving to work. So lazy uhh =P And everyday after work, I got the "feel" of going lepak instead of going home XD. I will do it once for sure! =D When my Kelisa has full petrol... LoLz. It's quite enjoyable you know... Today crazy me even purposely took the longer route rather than the short one. keke

Till then. I need to continue with my transformer drawing. Yeah TRANSFORMER. Simple one laz of course. I was quite amazed when I found I can actually draw one... XD Will share with u guys when it's time for it to show up! :)

四方帽的那一天

2009-08-13T06:23:00.003-07:00

I've finally graduated from MMU officially on 10th August 2009!

with my beloved Family. Sister and elder brother couldn't attend because of having class...
My parents know me well, so they bought flowers with BLUE wrapping paper. And my little brother purposely wears BLUE shirt to attend my convo haha

with my Dear *sweet* Susah him be my personal photographer throughout the day...
SUNFLOWER!! The flower I love the most... :)

with Lucas my favourite DJ *wakakaka*

with YeeKuan my ex-roommiee

with AhMing in front of the FA studio

Till here. Spot anything missing??

I didn't take photo with Kim alone!!! T.T I realized it when I was in the car.. on the way back home. swt... How can... :((

7-11 Gang!! It has been 7 months since we didn't meet up together...

with A3-6-10 housemates. Thanks so much for the little blue but not-very-blue flower XD

with my colleagues... who can attend my convo during working hours XD
Thanks chym for making the BLUE card for me!

with Debate class.. the bigger group photo has been taken on Pre-convo day.
Upload it in next post =P
Specially thanks to Audrey... took leave to be here! And she asked the flower shop to put on the BLUE ribbon.. *touched*

with CCF brothers

with CCF Sisters

Last, our favourite photo - Yeah!!!!!
*Photo credits to Lucas Ba*

For more photos, please view my facebook *click*
=P Malas nak upload here...

*Thanks all for the flowers and gifts and wishes. I am so much blessed. Really.. :) Your love and wishes give me the strength to go on my every step...*

It's COMING!

2009-08-06T23:43:00.003-07:00

多久了
这份曾经的期待
竟在转眼间
就这样来到

- 2004年12月踏入MMU的门槛

- 2005年8月，convo在Malacca进行... 所以没法看热闹

- 2006年8月第一次出席MMU convo，触景后的blog --
"我也要毕业"
"从小学到中学到大学，一直以来期待的，不就是这一刻吗? 霎时，这给了我一种“苦尽甘来”的感觉。想象着自己穿着毕业袍和家人们合照的情景，我突然觉得好兴奋好期待 >.< 那会是多么美的一件事啊~ ！^0^ 不过一想到我的毕业典礼是三年后的事，就觉得好漫长... :( "

- 2007年8月第二次出席MMU convo，还是一样的感叹 --
"仙人掌的故事"
“最近参加senior的convo
每次看到别人带四方帽都好羡慕
还有两年才到我毕业
T.T

常常都有人问我
“为什么你还没有毕业的？”
“你好象在MMU很久了hor？”
是咯
我好像在MMU很久了咧
可是还有两年啊...
>.<... ”

- 2008年8月第三次出席MMU convo，有了一点兴奋的期待 --
“MMU Convo'08”
“又是毕业的季节。
看着朋友们相继地带上四方帽向MMU挥别，
心里不禁涌起一份期待。
明年。到我了。”

是的，这次真的到我了！:)

2009年8月10日。MMU。见。

Fuddled by Music

2009-08-04T02:47:00.003-07:00

What about us?

2009-08-02T09:00:00.003-07:00

This weekend is special for me. Because I spent my Saturday and Sunday at Church... which I usually won't have the chance to do so.

In conjuction of 40 days fast and prayer 2009, CDPC had the prayer event for Sunday School Children which is called as KidsNatPrayer -- Kids National Prayer.

Since ahfai was serving on Sunday service, I followed him and his brother, CheeMeng to church though I have attended the Saturday service. Thanks ahmi for lending me her Nikon D300... it's awesome. Hehe. It has been such a long time that I didn't carry the camera and walk around. Thanks God for the chance. I love capturing the pictures of kids... they are cute :)

This is the photo I love the most. She has a pretty smile, right? :)

If they pray for our nations, what about us?

Thanks people!

2009-07-30T10:31:00.003-07:00

hehe. Yeay. My "power of love" has won the 4th prize!! *click here*

First thing first, I really want to THANK GOD. Glory to Him :)

Thanks to everyone for the vote... =D When I browsed through other designers' cards, I thought that I am not gonna stand any chance for this competition already. Yet the result surprised me! :)

I am satisfied. Not because of the prize but it showed me my future... :)

THANKS!

*hugz*

Memories

2009-07-29T00:43:00.003-07:00

I've taken some time to "shift" my previous blog posts from my Friendster and MSN live spaces. Of course NOT all... they will be moved in slowly.

While "shifting" the blogs, it brings lots of memories to me...

... My life with 7-11 housemates >>

... with CCF brothers and sisters >>

... with STABK friends >>
... with debate class >>
... with Form6 gang >>
... and this!!!! >>
OK dudes. I know I have totally forgotten about the FORUM.. I am sorry to you guys. :( To compesate... I AM GOING TO ATTEND YOUR CONVO!!! Yes promised :D

( BUT sorry to Shouhorng, u graduated... DeXing, UPM convo crashes with MMU convo ler... JiannHaur, u know... Singapore kinda far from KL... >.< I know you guys very understanding one hor... :D)

So bacically, I am going to UKM for ahpow's and Andy's convo XD. Looking forward to meet ya!

DIY shirt

2009-07-28T08:44:00.003-07:00

This is what I have been doing is the last few days when free -->

Yea!! I sew the jeans on the shirt. LoLz. Ok-ok saje... but I love it :)

OK this is how the thing started...

Saturday night, in the van... I saw sis Melissa bought lots of things for handicraft. It reminded me that it has been a very very long time that I didn't do any handicraft.

*Flashback*

When I was in primary school... I love to play barbie dolls so much!!! But it was so expensive :( *So I even swear to myself that after I have my own girls, I must buy barbie dolls for them XD * haha anyway I still have my barbie dolls... no money to buy her clothes so my mum taught me to sew!! Yea.. so I sew... by hand ok. That time I wasn't allowed to play with sewing machine. But of course, the clothes looked bad =P Whatever. I don't think barbie dolls care about it =P

Secondary school time... I learnt stitching... and DIY lots of things, for friends and myself. I love to see people's smiles when they got it and said they like it :) I wonder they still keep it until now...

After enter Form6 I guess, it's too bad that because of the TECHONOLOGY, I fall in love with COMPUTER instead of the handicraft XD So I started to play with my creativity on pc but not handicraft anymore. Slowly, I forgot the joys when doing the handicraft and the satisfaction after done it...

I wanna go back to it again! So I asked ahfai whether he has any unwanted jeans... ( I love jeans! ) and thanks sis Grace for borrowing me the sewing pack *hugz*

It's enjoyable when I did the sewing... even it took time. I wasn't bored. It's ok without the sewing machine... because I am not very good at using it pun, always senget-senget :(

Next, I am gonna make my handphone a jeans pouch! The current one has accompanied me for around 2 years... faithful uh? :) I have been searching around but just can't find one that I really like. Ohya, I did. Spotted one at GOLLA --

but kinda expensive. So... better do it myself. Wish me luck yeah :)

Emo...

2009-07-28T05:31:00.003-07:00

I found that being "EMO" is kinda popular recently... and hence, here is the story :P

-- All events, characters and incidents portrayed in this photoplay are fictional. Any similarity to any persons, living or dead, or to any actual events is coincidental and unintentional. --

*special THANKS to my housemates for playing cameo roles XD*

Be strong, Chor Meng...

2009-07-27T07:01:00.003-07:00

For those who don't know him, he is Chew Chor Meng 周初明, one of my favourite Singapore celebrities.

Handsome uh? He is a very good actor. Can be serious... humour... funny... Ever since I was in primary school, I love his acting. Can you imagine.. how many years it have been? Yet he still can be so good looking... Anyway, not for now anymore. He is now suffering from Spinal Muscular Atrophy (SMA) which cannot be cured. So sad :( I came to know about it last year... my family told me this when I back to Kluang. But I didn't ask any further.

Just now I read about him in a forum. Only I knew that he has just accepted Christ last year. According to him, he was baptised on 30th Aug, and then on 1st September he was confirmed of suffering from this disease. His life touches me. The disease doesn't stop him from knowing God or make him complain about God. Instead, he shared his testimony in the church. By the strength from God, he is strong enough to face this disease. He even asked his supporters don't worry about him, quoted from Bible... book of Matthew 6:34 -- "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

I am so touched when reading the news about him...

Truly, I thank God for his life... that he comes back to God even after 40 years. I pray that God may heal him, comfort him, and make him to be the blessing of people around him...

*Click here to read the news about ChorMeng ( chinese )*

u.p.d.a.t.e

2009-07-23T10:16:00.003-07:00

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This is the poster I helped to design for the competition that Ivy and Leo participated. I enjoy doing it even though it's kinda hard to come out with the ideas.
hey ya. THEY WON!

wow. AMAZING. hehe.

NoNoNoNo. I don't mean their product. I mean the PRIZES are AMAZING. LoL XD

Yalah of course their product is great then only they can win the amazing prizes right? =P

CONGRATULATION!! We have seen how u guys went through the whole progress... the efforts is not wasted :)

May Glory unto the Lord :) All the best for the coming competition. Proud of you guys \o/

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I got the message from a friend on Facebook. He read my blog and know I am going to be JOBLESS after September so he invited me to be the camera"girl" on a friend's wedding.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

I am soooo happy you know. Firstly, it's always my dream to take photo on people's wedding. Secondly, I long to meet up those friends!! This couple is the loving couple among our friends... I was so happy when I saw their Facebook photos taken on the registration day. And now, if I can really be the camera"girl" for them, it would be my pleasure :)

OK. After I am out of here, I must really really practise hard for the day... :)

小大人little adult

2009-07-23T02:56:00.003-07:00

小大人登场咯！！！

Yo people. Let's meet my latest character design! :)

They are 小大人 little adult -- who like to make themselves look mature as an adult even though they are still small kids.

--- The T-SHIRT DESIGN! ---
*I am still thinking whether to put them into online t-shirt design competition. What you all think about it? >.< *

--- The LOGO! ---

I spent 2 days on everything. To be more exact, 16 hours maybe? For me they are not that cute enough... yet to be improved. Please help me to make them better k? Of course the cuter the better :) I am thinking to turn them into 3D characters and start developing the stories for them.

*Ahem* Better don't think so much first. Step by step...

Anyway I do like the last design I make! :D Perhaps it's because I like to see kids wearing big big things :P

Links added!

2009-07-21T19:13:00.003-07:00

I am so in love in Animation! They can really make me smile :) ... or laugh XD

Hope they can bring YOU smile also. STAY TUNE to those animations coming! They might not be the greatest but the efforts behind the scenes is worth for you to appreciate. It's really no easy people.

Check the links at the sidebar.

"animation Attacking!"

and

"they are CUTE" :)

*Owh I love the chipmunks soooo much. I can't wait for their cute love story :P*

What it would be...?

2009-07-21T02:13:00.003-07:00

As most of you know, my current job is actually a 6-month "Graduate Training Program". So on 10th September, I will finish my so-called "training" here and be FREED!!!

I really can't wait for the day. \o/ I told my mum that I am bored of working. Yea, my mum is kinda swt of it. LoLz. But thanks God that whatever my decision, my parents will always give me their supports... well, of course I need to go through some nagging first @@

So, what my life would be after I have got my freedom back...? Check the following out. My FIRST try on GIF animation :P OK I know the drawing style is common... but the story is definitely from my very inner thought :)

-------------------------------- START --------------------------------------

First, I am going to sleep gao gao. From day to night.... from night to day... =>
Then, I am gonna design whatever I like. Comics.. Graphics.. blablabla. I found myself really need a tablet now. If I still can't have one by the time... maybe THIS is what I gonna do... =>
Next, I want to travel!!!! =>
<= but because sleep too much and don't have any income, I might end up travelling in Kuala Lumpur T.T Also, I want to eat many many many nice food!!! =>
<= Still, too poor. I won't have all of them. T.T You guys know I am addicted to PetSociety recently right? Yeay so I am gonna spend time playing with my pet ANGEL!! =>
<= But I will be so poor that no coin for her to collect when she dances with me. So she doesn't want to play with me T.T (ONLY if you got a pet in PetSociety, you'll understand what I am talking about)

So.. no money. Nothing else can do. It's ok. I got the guitar with me. I guess it's better to spend my time on learning guitar to be more PRO... =>
<= Somehow, it can be a way for me to earn some income too... XD

-------------------------------- END --------------------------------------

...... After I done all the drawing, I hope the realistic will be much better than I imagine >.<

我。不。相。信。

2009-07-19T18:30:00.003-07:00

今天在“当今大马”看到一篇很好笑的新闻。

-- 新海峡时报集团总编辑再努抨击在野党领袖在事件后续发展过程，质疑马来人的能力。

“举例来说，为什么雪州政府需要寻求私人法医来调查赵明福的死因？难道政府医院的专家不够资格吗？或者不能被相信？”

“众多政府机构的官员难道不是马来人吗？难道马来裔的警察、法官、教师、调查员、医生、讲师全部都不能够被相信吗？” --

我看了

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

可以相信吗?! 你确定?!

他们当然够专业，但就是不能够相信!!!!!! 你现在才知道?!

现在的我，不仅不相信政府医院政府机构，连警察、法医我都不相信!!

许多的人陆续站出来，想尽力去将马来西亚肮脏的部分洗干净。结果? 被“污桶”喷了一身污水，清洁的衣服上留下脏兮兮污点。更甚的是，这“污桶”还平白无故用污水淹死了赵明福!

悲。

每个人都很想知道赵明福惨死的真相。可是又可以怎样? 谁敢说马来西亚有独立的执法和司法机构? 我真的觉得很难过。可是我能够怎么做? 我不姓马，我可以做什么?

可以好不容易执政掌权，却被硬拖下台。

可以公正清廉为民服务，却被诬赖陷害。

..........

有谁，能够再次将马来西亚清洗干净...

it's just a Dream

2009-07-16T19:16:00.003-07:00

昨夜作了个梦

很美

但只是个梦

不会实现的梦

。

Dedicated

2009-07-15T11:00:00.003-07:00

After 1 and 1/2 day. It's finally done *phew* It doesn't look very alike with the real couple but I am kinda satisfied with it dy... cuz have really tried my best.

This is my 3rd caricature sketch.. 1st is ahfai, now on the wall in front of his study table. 2nd is me and ahfai, now on ahfai's study table. Will try to scan it and put here if possible :P

Congrates frenz :)

*Thanks ahsong for the tablet... it helps XD

痛

2009-07-12T23:23:00.003-07:00

My card is in the stores!

2009-07-12T19:23:00.003-07:00

Spotted that!

Not very obvious but I regconize it :P It's in the store "Designer Greetings" which is located in some of the busiest malls in the Klang Valley. To read more about that, *click here*

pictures credit to Foldees.com

Thanks to FOLDEES!!

2009-07-10T10:37:00.003-07:00

It's FRIDAY again! Yeah! The happiest thing -- ahfai is back to Cyber for his weekend \o/

Just now as I was hanging around in ahfai's house while he was looking at his letters. Suddenly,

"WEY SHU WAN!"

He shouted at me. So loud you know. I was frightened. Thought I have done anything wrong.

Guess what, I saw the card on his hand. A greeting card.. with two little teddy bears on the cover. Yes!! The card I designed!!! A big WOW.

For those who read my previous post, I have mentioned about the on-going greeting card contest that I participated. People who has reviewed and rated all the cards will get a FREE card which cost USD$1.20 to send to their friends.

Yea. I did that. And I chose my own card to send to ahfai, without letting him know single thing about this.

It is HERE! I was so surprised and excited. The card is nicely printed with...

...receipient name and address on the envelope...

...quality card...

...quality color ink... ...and I love its back the most! Because it got my name on it :P

It's such a joy to see my design printed. It's not only living in PC, but in the REAL world now!! This has really encouraged me to go on with better design... I wish my design can bring a smile on many people's face :)

Million THANKS to FOLDEES.com. You has given me to chance to serve people with my design.

Seriously I don't care much whether I can win the contest now. I know there're designs much better than mine. I just want to introduce this nice website to you -- Foldees.com. It's founded by Malaysian and based in PJ. The greeting card contest is participated by designer from all over the world. So it's INTERNATIONAL. Support it ok? Trust me... the cards are really with good quality.

A superb NICE and FREE card! You will sure love it when you get it. So don't wait, just click to start now :)

dream Car

2009-07-09T23:46:00.003-07:00

Recently I am very sensitive to the car plates. I keep paying attention to the car plate of every car I saw. Because...

I have my dream car plate :P

Ever since I dream about my future car (when I was around 17, 18 years old..), I started to dream about the car plate as well. But of course, that time my dream car plate not included ahfai's birthday date. It was WSW 1223, which is my own birthday date.

Well, everything seems to be so "ngam" that the latest running plate alphabet is "WS?" now! Since I am working already, soon I will be able to get my first car. (soon = 1 year? 2 years? >.<) Anyway I am kinda worried that "WSW" will sold out before I buy my first car. Hopefully it can wait for me... Ohya, my dream car is navyBlue MyVi. *I even put my dream car plate on it >.<*

Cover Design of Choir Song Book

2009-07-09T08:57:00.003-07:00

Doubt

2009-07-09T08:30:00.003-07:00

My 1st Greeting Card!

2009-07-08T11:07:00.003-07:00

Recently I have participated in a on-going greeting card contest. And thanks God, my card is in! :)

The theme of the contest is "MONOCHROME" but according to the rule, "monochrome" is just applied to the cover. Meanwhile, there's no limited color for the center of the card.

I have designed the little teddy bear on my own :)

COVER: Even though we might appear different sometimes...

CENTER: ... we have one thing in common!

LOVE makes BIG difference seems alot smaller.

You may *click here* to rate for my card. Just according to your own view ok?.. if you think this card only worth 1 rate then go for it. I won't know anyway :P

But you gotta sign up for an account first and you can't simply vote for your favourite card. Click the image below. It will bring you to sign up, then go through every cards and you shall rate them all. I think this is kinda fair... unless there're people who rate 5 for their favourite cards but only 1 for others. LoL.

Thanks friends :)

For MJ

2009-07-08T10:37:00.003-07:00

6月26日早上，睡醒了却神智不怎么清醒的我接到ahfai的电话。

“Michael Jackson死了。”

“哦。他几岁哦？”

“50岁。”

“哦。他还有打球咩？”

“有啦。他七月有50场巡回演唱会...”

...... 嗯？

>.<

我以为他说Michael Jordan... 因为太久没有听到MJ的名字，一时在脑海里搜寻不到他 >.<

Michael Jackson死了。这颗巨星的陨落，对地球造成了极大的震撼。

然而那天早上的我，心情完全没有任何的起伏。因为我不喜欢Michael Jackson。

印象中的他，娈童，漂白，整容，虐儿...

接下来的几天，ahfai一直提到关于MJ的事。我才恍然，原来这才是真正的MJ，我不曾去了解的MJ。

他没有漂白，是患了白癜风。

他没有娈童，是有人为了钱而诬陷他。

他没有虐儿，是孩子心里最好的爸爸。

不断在网上搜寻关于MJ的文章。一篇篇的文字中，淌着一滩滩的泪水，诉说着MJ的童年，他的天真，他的善良，他的博爱...

心里一阵抽痛，我知道得太迟了。

为什么有许多的事，总是在人离开后，事实才被揭露。为什么媒体可以这么狠心，为了新闻价值而去摧毁一个人的光芒。为什么我这么天真，会去相信报章杂志对MJ的抹黑...

他做的太多了。世界知道的太少了。

昨天在youtube看了MJ的memorial，伤痛之余，为MJ画了简单的sketch。不怎么像，因为我只想画出他看似最天真的笑脸。

他是天使。是孩子们的天使。也是这世界的天使。

谢谢你，Michael Jackson... You'll be missed.

写给曾经的二哥

2009-03-25T10:22:00.003-07:00

我不知道你知不知道，你是我的二哥。按年龄排，你第二。

我们同校，却是藉由mIRC认识的。

那时，身为下午班巡察团副团长的我，常常巡逻时跑到Block F。你的课室在Block F 隔壁的Block D。就这样，和早上班的你见面了。

其实，很多事我都忘了。忘了为什么会认你作我的干哥哥。忘了你怎么对我好。

但是我记得，你是个很好的干哥哥。

记得你高高的背影，记得你腼腆的傻笑，记得你总是在电话里无言的沉默。

最记得我中二、你中四那年的排球联赛。我和诗恩搭巴士去体育馆，却不知该在哪里按铃下车。结果，巴士过站了。烈日下，我们在那个地方迷路，不知走了半小时还是一小时，才到体育馆。

还记得那时你递给我们的100Plus。

那天，7点多到家。从来不曾那么迟回的我挨骂了。但是我一点都不后悔，因为可以看到你捧杯。

那是好久以前的事了。

曾经因为我的无理取闹，我们结束了这段“干兄妹”的关系。可是又因为我的后悔，不过几天我又叫你ahgor。

可惜，后来还是结束了。

如果说我现在又后悔了，不是因为我想要有干哥哥，而是因为这段关系的结束让我失去了和你联络的机会。

知道你和她的婚讯，打从心底为你们感到开心。很想亲口祝福你... 却不知该如何开口。

虽然你仍在我的MSN里。甚至这几年都有在她的家看到你，可是形同陌路人。我时常都会纳闷，你真的还记得我吗？

无论如何，我记得你。一辈子都会记得，你在那段中学日子留给我的回忆。

谢谢你曾经愿意当我的干哥哥。衷心祝福你和她，白头偕老 :)

哦，对了。我还记得你的生日 :P

Restart?

2009-03-25T02:22:00.003-07:00

最近每天都在玩Facebook的俄罗斯方块。上瘾了。

拼了命，不过为了破自己的纪录。

一旦觉得玩坏了，没有机会破纪录，我就会马上毫不犹豫地按Esc，然后restart game。

原因，既然赢不了，何必浪费时间。

这不是件好事。因为我已经有了这种坏习惯... 一旦任何事不如我所预期的，或者突然被搞砸了，我就会想要重新来过。

可能，是我的完美主义在作祟，不想有任何的瑕疵。

又可能，我输不起。

只是，人生中又有多少事能够让我Esc 然后restart...

Cartoon designed

2009-03-19T23:22:00.003-07:00

This is the original doggy picture I got from istockphoto.com

I traced it out in Flash...

... and then by following the style, I create a new Kitty!

... also my FAVOURITE animal -- Giraffy!!!Cute? ^^

I am gonna create more and more in the future. Don't be surprise if you see them in your mobile phone one day.. that's exactly what they are meant for :D

The 7th Day

2009-03-18T06:24:00.003-07:00

Today is my 7th working day. Thanks God that everything goes well so far.

After being kept in a room for a few days, I get along with my team quite well. Though there has no any "Zon Melepak" in my company but thanks to the technology that we can have YM, Facebook and Youtube to keep us relax.

We are CREATIVE people and also the CRAZY people at the same time. *LoL*

We play PET SOCIETY. *Not me @@ It's that 3 girls who sitting besides me. I still don't understand what so fun about it. I love my 3D FooPets more :P*

We makan, we listen to music, we watch youtube.. *Really funny la the youtube we watched today.. but so.... Ouchhh!! >.<*

Of course we DO WORK. Because of the nature of our work, we are always in a CUTE world. You can always heard one commented on other's work --- "Comelnyee...." Well, this is the coolest part as I am so keen on drawing and design cute cartoon character :D *weeeee*

My team mates are nice to me. If you come to my pc then you'll know WHY. The Adobe Flash has been unexpectedly quit when I was SO concentrating on my work yesterday. Ya. I was VERY VERY concentrating... so as a result......

......I forgot to save the work.

T.T Arghhhh.

All of them were so kasihan on me.. Reem has even put on 3 sticky notes on my monitor to remind me to save my work every 5 second.. Ctrl+S... Save save save >.< *Thanks pals.. I keep pressing Ctrl+S time to time now :P*

On my 2nd working day, I was assigned to design a poster for my company. It killed me.. because I am not that good at using Illustrator and graphic design... yet I have limited time to complete it. As consequence of that, I finished it at home in the morning 5am T.T The design didn't look nice to me... but I was forced to leave it and went to bed because of the superb-tireness. In my morning prayer, I asked God to let my design be accepted. Our God is trustworthy! As he promised,

"Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you."
--- Matthew 7:7

Yes, the design was accepted :D *phew..* I am soOoOo thankful for that. \o/ Through this "assignment", I can use illustrator better too. What a great thing! ^o^

Now I learnt to include God in everything I do, especially in my job. As long as we invite God to join us, He will always be there for us :)

Last, I just realized that I am such a WORKAHOLIC @@ It's so true that I am a task-oriented person... who doesn't allow any mistake or imprefect turned out in my work. And I didn't wish to stop if I never finish up my work.. therefore I started to stay back in the company until I get my work done. *even feel quite reluctant to leave if I haven't get the task complete... kesian ahfai always wait for me >.<* The craziest thing is -- I ENJOY DOING LIKE THIS!! Maybe there'll be one day when I am bored of these but WHO CARES. Jesus asked us not to worry about tomorrow right? :P

Ohh ya. Just wanna share a good news here. The CHRISTIAN HOUSE is on!!! *Yeah!!!!* Praise the Lord! I am thankful that we can get the house at quite reasonable price... especially it's hard to get such price for Cyberia Smarthome. I have got 6 brothers and sisters as my beloved housemates. Anyway we are currently at the last stage -- CONFIRMATION which is so important. I am kinda afraid there will be anyone among 7 of us will back out suddenly and I will then find no one to move in. So... keep praying for this :)

Alright. Gonna turn in for now. Goodnightz ^.^

1st Day Working

2009-03-10T04:03:00.003-07:00

Now is 7pm, I haven't take bath and still in the formal wear. Just can't wait to tell others:

I am back from my first day working!!! \o/

Greenapple said I look kinda EXCITED.. well, not to say "excited", I just simply feel quite enjoying the work. It's better than what I expected.

As a TRAINEE CREATIVE, my job is to... do the CREATIVE works lo *Basically use Flash. Somehow, I miss MAYA alots :( We might handle an ANIMATION project soon but it's in 2D @@* There are 6 of us working as trainee in the Creative Team. 4 of them from MMU @@ 1 from LimKokWing and 1 from UniKL.

There's only 1 chinese and 1 indian in this company. YES. I am the ONLY chinese. >.< But thanks God that He has prepared me well to mix with Malays. I was in Tadika Perpaduan for 3 years since I was 4 years old. 70-80% of my classmates are Malays. I even followed them to pray before we had makan :P

All my colleagues there are very friendly and easy to get along. The BOSS too! We have went through 2 meetings today. First on the project that we are going to work on. Another one is with boss. He is very opened to share.. and keep encouraging us to work out our best.

I particularly like what he has emphasized --

We are CREATIVE people. So work freely.. relax.. have some FUN when you are stressed up.

So, we can use YM, Facebook, Youtube, Friendster... Hoho. I really like to be part of the CREATIVE team.

6 months to go. Hope I can really enjoy the work and get to understand better on God's plan for me :)

CCF Kites Flying Trip

2009-03-09T07:22:00.003-07:00

For all these whiles, I have been missing about the day.. 22nd April 2007, playing kites with Audrey, Fangzhe and TerngGoang at the taman which we passed by on the way from Kuala Lipis back to Cyberjaya.

It's soooo shyok!!!!

After trying hard to find out the name of that taman and asking around in CCF, I have finally got the chance to visit there again :D

Really glad that we can make it \o/ Thanks God for the weather. At least we still got the chance to play kites for 1 hour+. Thanks all for joining. It's such a great time for me. Hope you all did enjoy it ;)

Ohya. If you are wondering where's the place, it's Taman Metropolitan Kepong :D

*Dear Audrey, FangZhe and TerngGoang, I still missed the trip alots :P *

问卷调查 -- 你相信有神吗？

2009-03-04T00:53:00.003-08:00

这是我一直很想很想做的事。终于有时间把它做出来了。

这次，不是什么FYP或Thesis，只是我凭着想要探讨人对信仰和基督教看法而设计的问卷。也许，在这所谓“科学”的时代真的没多少人对这个课题有兴趣。但把兴趣撇一边，只是填填问卷，表达一下自己的看法总可以吧？

其实，要谈宗教课题，我总认为必须回到最根本的问题 -- 是否相信神的存在？若不相信，一切对于宗教信仰的探讨和争论都是绝无意义的。

我也不喜欢辩论宗教课题。因为说得再多、说得再好，就算辩赢了而对方却口服心不服，有何用呢？很多事情不是单凭言语就能是人信服，更多的在于一个人自己的经历和信心。

“苹果之甜，苹果之酸，辩了3天3夜苹果都烂了还不知道，还不如吃一口就知道苹果是甜酸了。” -- 摘自97国辩

虽然不是什么重要的问卷，但我希望答卷者都是认真的回答的。谢啦~ ;)

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无题

2009-02-24T20:56:00.003-08:00

我的空日子就快结束了。真不知该喜/该忧 @@

喜因为终于不用再摇脚了。*yeah*

忧因为没得再摇脚了。*haih*

人就是这么矛盾。

3月1日，我将开始参加MSC Incubator里的一间公司 -- Bill Adam Association Sdn. Bhd. 所提供的Graduate Training Program。为期6个月，有allowance的，足够我在Cyber活。

选择参加这个training，主要因为还未找到明确的方向。相信training应该不会占据太多时间，所以可以趁这段时间再继续慢慢摸索......

也希望这个training 结束后，我能够有一些的积蓄让我去玩~~~~

泰国？寮国？越南？柬埔寨？菲律宾？*uhmmmm...*

6个月后... 再打算吧。*好期待*

上个周末和CCF一些Final Year的弟兄姐妹一起到Rawang MBS参加 Crossroad Camp。这是由一群已经踏入社会的基督徒所组成的Alumni Network主办的。透过这个营会，认识了一些来自其他大学的弟兄姐妹，也更加清楚未来在社会中将会面对的挑战。

其实一直很期待这个camp，因为可以重新回到seniors们当中。Chang Shen... Novell... Vince... Annie... Chee Meng... Ken... Ting Ying... Lip Haw... \o/ 但同时，这也提醒了自己一个事实 -- 我老了。>.<

Anyway，希望可以拿到在camp所拍的照片 :P

目前，只想快一点在Cyber找到一间空的unit，建立我一直以来梦想的 CCF之家~ *wohooo* 所以在此也顺便劳驾各位，若有何相关详情，记得通知我，小女感激不尽 ^o^

Training要开始了，必须抓紧时间好好休息，养精蓄锐面对下一个挑战。所以... 明天回居銮咯!!! :D

2nd couple T designed

2009-02-24T08:38:00.003-08:00

Hoho.

Couple T which has been specially designed for my good friend. *TOTORO!!!*

Thanks so much for the support ler. So sorry that can't make it really nice. Thanks for providing me the photo too. I am glad that you both have took photo with it. *my pleasure*

Happy Belated Valentine to both of you. Must be 幸福 always o. v^o^v

A reminder for my dear coursemates!

2009-02-22T19:38:00.003-08:00

OK. I really DON'T understand THIS --

I am a December intake student. I have already finished all my studies in January 2009. I am considered as GRADUATE.

Right??

YET...

I am charged for IT SERVICE FEE 2008/09 SEMESTER 3!!!!!!

WHAT IS THIS???

I never use MMU IT service in this semester and I believe I am not gonna use it. WHY I have to pay for it???

WEEK 1, I have checked my financial status carefully and then apply for graduation online. Everything seems smooth. Alright, so I can leave it there.

WEEK 4, this morning, ahfai helped me to pay for the academic transcript as I am not feeling well. I got his sms -- I owed MMU RM30! I thought I have clear all the payment in Week 1??? Immediately, I online and log in to my Financial Kiosk to check what is that for. WOW. IT service fees SEMESTER 3.

I have already apply for graduation online in Week 1 but I still have to pay for the IT Service Fees which is stated on 17 February, in WEEK 3???

W-H-Y-????????

Argh. Really angry. It's not the matter of RM30. I just simply don't understand why a graduate have to pay for IT service fee for the semester that she has already left MMU.

Arghhhhhhhh.

So, here a reminder for all my dear coursemates. Check your financial status now. Later cannot graduate, GG lor.

x . x

Sample Couple T

2009-02-06T05:13:00.003-08:00

TADA~~~

Draw on Tshirt + paint = 9-10 hours *slow slow draw and paint de*

Idea is by ahfai. I just modify abit on it.

Shu Wan ( one = 1 )

Chee Fai ( five = 5 )

I like it. Simple yet meaningful. *but I don't like the guy tshirt. The cutting is bad >.< *

Planning for the next product.. Hopefully can get it done well.

Thanks for the supports friends!! Will update as soon as I got the plain tshirt.

*Smile*

Couple T

2009-02-03T22:07:00.003-08:00

Sienz.

大家都说，不用急着找工。先休息、玩玩。

不做工谁养我哦 :(

不过，钱不是重点。

重点是，我不能没有事做... 这会让我觉得很空虚 - 无聊 :(

随着8个"股东"的毕业，我们PhloxStudio的服装生意也告个段落，结束营业了。

谢谢大家过去的支持！！！

不过呢，我们当中的两位 "股东" -- Kim 和 Kaelynn 已经开设属于她们自己的Online Fashion Blog Shop! Congratesss~~

来，来，大家支持一下 --->

Kim's -- :: Trend Reports ::

KaeLynn's -- :: Fashion-Loft ::

我咧？？

...........

有，我有一件我一直很想做的事 -- 设计couple T。

如果我自己设计图案，然后画上t-shirt。每个图案只限一套（因为情侣撞衣是一件很让人懊恼的事 >.< ) ... 类似下图：

你会买吗？

妳会买吗？

你们会买吗？

会吗会吗会吗？

Just spot this

2009-02-03T19:25:00.003-08:00

Do we look alike when we are wearing spec and smiling? :P

My cousin - Me - My brother

My FYP - The Survivor

2009-02-02T01:39:00.003-08:00

Here is the short animation done by me.. as my FYP. Nothing Great. But all by God's grace. :)

SPECIAL THANKS to --

Mr.Bluewoooood Liong... for willing to borrow me his nice voice even he got a big wound on his tongue. Forgot to help you record your singing. Next time ok. Thanks.

Mr.Teng Goaaaang... for walking to campus even no class no exam, and helping me out along the recording session. Thanks for the cute voice too. I got the right person to record the monkey voice. Thanks.

Mr.Jia Chinnnnn... for driving to campus just to borrow me your laptop. It helps lots. Thanks and sorry for disturbing your sweet dream. Thanks

Mr.Chee Faaaaaai... for bearing with me as your BLUR gf. Thanks for walking all the way to my house then to campus, to deliver my pendrive which I left at home. Very much thanks. Hugz.

茫。然。

2009-02-01T07:45:00.003-08:00

目前，我的生活，

一片空。

. . . . . .

不行。

不能这样开始我的下一段人生。

我需要方向。

我需要清楚的方向。

上帝，请给我指引...

妹妹回来了~

2009-01-30T02:38:00.003-08:00

当然不是我的亲生妹妹。她是一年多前我妈妈带的小孩，是我二伯母的侄女的女儿。

2007年10月，她随家人移民到纽西兰。今年回来过年，她妈妈特地带她上我家拜年...

长大了，比较瘦了，也因为太久不见，她对我们很陌生，不大敢亲近。我和淑环花了一些功夫才让她愿意和我们玩，还用“你不叫我，我就不给你玩具玩”的方式让她开口叫“婉姐”，“二姐” :P

无论如何，还是小美女一个 ^.^

2007年10月

2009年1月

农历新年：2009

2009-01-29T23:48:00.003-08:00

自懂事以来，就觉得我的人生仿佛不断在迎新送旧，而且速度很快。

大家都说我，24岁了。

拜托，我才23岁不到2个月OK!!

（嘀咕）人家刚满月不久咧。

今年新年没有什么特别的feel... 唯一能够大声的是告诉大家，我终于毕业了。

终.....于......!!!

而且感谢神，我能顺利以first class的成绩毕业。记得刚踏入MMU时，很多人都告诉我，FCM学生很难可以考到first class。所以对能够考到first class的senior们，我总抱以钦佩的眼光。现在自己能够做到，真的是神的恩典。我尤其感谢神在我最骄傲的时候刮了我一巴掌，把我的学业推进深谷，让我醒悟，学习谦卑和信靠他，慢慢重新爬出来。故事太长，有机会再叙述。

也有很多人问，考到first class又怎样？我们creative multimedia这行，工作应征时都不看成绩，而是看作品。

对其他人，成绩好坏也许真的无所谓。但对我而言，这张成绩单，见证了神的恩典。故事也很长，有机会再叙述。

总之呢，我深深经历到...

［要先求祂的国和祂的义，其它一切都要加给你们。］马太福音6:33

谢谢ahfai... 时时在旁给我支持和鼓励。他的爱，是我完成这个FYP的动力... :)

谢谢爸爸妈妈，愿意出钱让我买新电脑... 如果继续靠那台Pentium4，我应该会死得很惨 x.x

谢谢亲爱的FA lecturer们，给予我意见和帮助，让我的动画不至于惨不忍睹。

特别谢谢ahming，愿意在大家都忙得焦头烂额的时候教我很多maya的skills。不好意思，都怪我以前懒惰学，给你添麻烦了 >"< 还有，谢谢帮我print posters, 帮我交final works... 天啊，给你添的麻烦还不少咧 @@ 谢谢谢谢

谢谢弟兄姐妹们为我祷告并常常给我打气~

谢谢172个帮我完成thesis survey form的朋友们。172!! 初写thesis时，我的预计调查人数不过60。我真的很感动ler T.T

还有很多人要谢。谢谢谢谢谢谢大家。

我。毕。业。了！！！

ok, 回到 农历新年 的专题。

新年，对我而言，是团圆的日子。在不同地方的亲戚朋友们能回到熟悉的老地方团聚，实在难得。甚至和一些亲戚朋友，真的是一年才能见面那么一次。

套伯伯姑姑的一句话，魏家真的好久没办喜事了。希望堂哥们能够在今年完婚... 不要一直拿我当挡箭牌。没用的。本小姐还年轻。再不娶，肚腩再大一点，就甭想再娶啦 :P 此言论仅仅针对未婚的堂哥们。

朋友，不好意思... 今年见面的实在不多。明年吧 :P 真的好想和你们去air papan玩的，我一直都好想念以前一起在海边疯狂的回忆。呃，其实也没有很疯狂啦.. 但就是很难忘呀。希望还会有这样的机会。也希望明年大家都是携伴拜年的哦 XD

愿大家今年都是平平安安身体健康 ^.^ 明天上KL找工咯！！没钱去玩，一定要找工赚钱养活自己 ><

Holiday at Miri - Brunei

2009-01-20T02:44:00.003-08:00

I am back from Sarawak!!

BUT.. I didn't take many photos during this trip. Only have few pieces to share here..

Other than hanging out in Miri, I have been to BRUNEI with ahfai and xiaobai. It has taken us about 45 minutes to across the border and 3 hours to the main city, Bandar Seri Begawan. Such a long journey @@

In Brunei

Heading to Bandar Seri

Sultan Omar Ali Saifuddien Mosque

We first went to YAYASAN SULTAN HAJI HASSANAL BOLKIAH COMPLEX, the shopping mall that near the mosque. Its design is quite outstanding in a way that doesn't make it look like a shopping mall. After that, we went to THE MALL at Gadong, one of the new shopping complex in Brunei... But we got no mood to shop since the things there are priced at $$$ not RM >"< ( fyi, RM100 = $41 )

Later, we went to JERUDONG PARK, a place that used to be the HEAVEN for kids - according to ahfai and xiaobai. They were so excited that they could be there once again and kept telling me how fun the themepark was.. But looking into it, I can hardly imagine @@ Anyway I do believe they had their wonderful memories at this place.

xiaobai said, this DIAMOND is the significant design of the Jerudong Park..

Me and fai

View of the theme park from outsideWe were there at about 3pm, but the notice was telling us that...Managed to capture a pic of CAT outside the Jerudong Park

We left Jerudong after hanging around outside of the park. On the way leaving Brunei, we dropped by the BILLIONTH BARREL MONUMENT at SERIA... I have no idea about this place so just copied the following description from internet :P

"Commissioned by Brunei Shell Petroleum and designed by a local architect, the Billionth Barrel Monument commemorates the production of the billionth barrel of oil by the Seria oilfield. It is located close to the seawell, near the site 'S-1', the first well dug almost 70 years ago.

The approach to the monument is through an arched entrance and a row of trees on either side. The arches serve to remind visitors that Brunei is an Islamic country and the floor is tiled in an Islamic pattern. The monument is a mere 5-minute drive from the Seria town centre. " --- aguidetoasia.com

The petrol price is really cheaaaaaaaap there. $0.53 per litre!! ( $0.53 = RM1.32 ) @@ BUT.. only for Brunei-registed vehicles. For us, we had to pay $1.18 per litre ( $1.18 = RM2.94 ) ... aikz. Of course we didn't pump petrol there.

-- THE END OF MY BRUNEI TRIP --

Coming next, photos captured at ESPLANADE, one of the beaches at Miri.

Ahfai's cute niece - Joyce

Sunset

The last picture reminded me of our GOD. We used to be walking on our own path and neglect His guidance. But as He promised, He never leaves us. God is always there to protect us and look after us...

LaLaLaaa

2008-12-31T23:03:00.003-08:00

I am in HOLIDAY MOOD!!!

hohohohoho~!!

I guess FA is the first to have Final Presentation among all the majors. So we are relieved earlier than others. BUT still, we got a INDUSTRY PREVIEW on coming Thursday. We have to polish up our work for it.

My final work is so-so... comparing to the great works of my coursemates. Yet I am satisfied with it. This is within my plan. I didn't plan for a very good project because I don't want to stress myself. So I just went for SIMPLICITY.. try to simplify my work as I can.

My only target is to hit the requirement for every crit. I am THANKFUL that I did it. *I hope I really did it >.<*

I didn't have to push myself much, just work accordingly to the schedule planned. That's why I look quite relax at the end of rushing for FYP. I used to be very competitive, wish to get better work than others. But after some thoughts, it doesn't bring me any benefit but only suffer and stress. So I decided to put everything aside, just to focus on my work alone. That's MY work. It will forever be the BEST for me =D

It's hard for me though. Sometimes I just felt so depressed that I can't have a very impressive work. Everytime I came to this, I prayed that God can grant me a humble heart and take away every pride I have. Let me be a SIMPLE girl. Let me be 知足常乐. I hate of having competitive thoughts and complicated mindset.

Thanks GOD that He helped me to overcome this. =)

Whatever my FYP result is, I give all the glory to God.

For my dear coursemates, I am not lying -- YOUR WORKS ARE REALLY GREAT!! Proud of you guys. =D May you all got the job soon. Let's shine in this INDUSTRY! \o/

I always heard from people that 2009 is gonna be a very bad year. Why this time?? I am just about to enter the market place ler @.@ Hehe. Anyway I don't have much worries about the job now. I know God is gonna prepare the BEST one for me. Be firm, have a smile and wait =)

ANYWAY anyway anyway, I am in HOLIDAY mood now!!

After the Final Crit, I took a rest then hang out with ahfai to Dengkil for car service. Then we went to Alamanda for BED TIME STORIES but too bad the tickets are sold out. *sad* So we just hang out in the Carrefour. After back home and slept for while, we were out again to fetch cheemeng at the LCCT.

In the LAST day of 2008, I spent all day long with ahfai.. just watching the HK drama series and makan'ing =.=

Today?

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 everyone!!!

ThankSsSss!!

2008-12-25T20:22:00.003-08:00

My 23rd birthday was just over on 23rd Dec 2008.

Most of you may not know that, 23 is my favourite number. So this year is very SPECIAL to me. I had a simple, but wonderful birthday.. which I really enjoyed it.

First, I want to thanks GOD. Thank you JESUS. For everything that you have done to my life and planned for me. Thanks for the love and teaching that make me what I am today. Thanks for giving me the chance to serve you on my birthday. I am so blessed. =)
Next, I am just thank'ing people according to memories. Not priority.
0. THANKS EVERYONE FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES.. through phone call, SMS, Facebook and Friendster!
- As I was busy with Christmas Celebration on that night and rushing FYP after the day, I didn't manage to reply all of you. Sorry about it. But I got the BLESSING from you people. You know who you are.. THANKS my beloved family and friends!! *hugz*

1. Thanks to DEBATE CLASS, the FIRST to celebrate birthday for me.
- They told me it was to celebrate KwaiSang's birthday but end up for both of us! What a surprise.. :D The great thing was, most of the seniors and juniors were there! Love the time with you all.. singing K together. Thanks guys..

2. Thanks to AUDREY, from her I received the FIRST birthday gift.
- It was really surprising and touching!! She post it by POS LAJU to Mr.Bluewood Liong and asked him pass to me. So sweet. Thanks for the lovely BLUE-BLACK cardigan. I love it ^.^

3. Thanks to SIEW TENG, for her sacrifice to ACCOMPANY me hanging out in ALAMANDA.

- I really wanna say a BIG THANKS here. She was going to sit for her very FIRST MBA mid-term exam 3 days later yet she spent her precious time with me just to accompany me on my birthday. Thanks for the PIZZAHUT treat!! Thanks for hanging out with me in ALAMANDA!! I really enjoyed the time with you.. especially the "sister talk"! *giggle* Yea I promised to give a BIG treat after I work! and I am gonna grab the receipt before you do. *Blek*

4. Thanks to EDMUND, for the SURPRISE given at Alamanda.
- It was a surprise to meet him in ALAMANDA. The MOST surprising thing was that, he bought me a TOBLERONE as birthday gift. I love white chocolate.. =D Thanks Edmund for the birthday wish. I am so touched by the sincerity. Blessed \o/

5. Thanks to XIAOBAI and AARON, the treating me as DA SAO so good.

- It is soooo NICE to be their DA SAO. Haha. Thanks for the sweet birthday gift. I really love the quote on it. Even know them for less than 1 year but I feel like I know them as long as Ahfai know them. Yea thanks boys.. Glad to know you guys through Ahfai! =D

6. Thanks to CS - the Christian Society [ CF, CCF, CSS ]

- I guess this is the first time I have so many people singing birthday songs for me. Thanks for all the wishes given along the Christmas Night. Blessed to have you all as my brothers and sisters in Christ and serve God together in this campus ^.^

7. Thanks to CCF, the place where I grow and SUPPORT me all the time.
- Everyone of you is so SPECIAL to me. I am blessed to have you all to walk with me in these 4 years. I am not so sure about this but I heard that the YUM-CHA was to celebrate birthday for me. Whatever it was, thanks for accompanying me at the last hour on my birthday! Love you all so much.. *muakz*

8. Thanks to KIM, YEECHIN, MING, for the LOVE for me all the time.

- I love the shoes so much =D and the color so "ngam" with the cardigan - blue and black. But here, what I want to thank you ppl is the FRIENDSHIP.. the LOVE and CARE from you guys throughout my days in MMU. We are going to walk our own future now.. no more in the same place but thanks God we will be forever in the same family of His. Thanks my dear.. *hugz*

9. Thanks to YONPIN, for the THOUGHFULNESS
- He gave me a BIG water bottle as birthday gift and asked me drink more water after enter the market place. AND.. according to him, the big water bottle can be used to keep MONEY as well. Haha. Thanks for being such a cuteee boy. NO. You are no more little boy.. 21 years old already. ALL THE BEST for you! Don't be a superstar or whatever ok? It will be hard for us to meet you up =.= ENJOY your YOUTH!

10. Thanks to YEEKUAN, for the UNDERSTANDING
- She is the FIRST one that wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY in person. We are not used to be very close even sharing the same room. But I know she treasures all of us as her housemates and good friends in MMU. Thanks for the cute birthday gift. I love it ^.^ Thanks for FRIENDSHIP, and all the UNDERSTANDING given during the days we spent together! Jia You for your future too!
11. Thanks JIM for the phone call from Singapore, Thanks YEESHENG for the phone call from UK, Thanks PEILING for the SMS from CHINA, Thanks WEIGIAP for the sms from SINGAPORE, Thanks SHIOUFANG for the call to chat with me about recent life, Thanks SHOUHORNG for the call which I didn't manage to answer, Thanks CHIZXIAN for remembering my birthday, Thanks KAILOON for the wishes, Thanks WANCHIN for the belated wishes!!

- I specially Thanksssssssssssssss you all here because you all are my BEST FRIENDS in STABK... I really MISS you all VERY MUCH T.T Miss the days we were together... really really miss you all.. =(

LAST, I won't leave you out la. You were the LAST one I thank in my last year birthday too right? =P

*THANKS to MR.FONG CHEE FAI, my dear*
- Thanks for EVERYTHING. Thanks for sparing your time to celebrate birthday for me while rushing for your assignment. Thanks for the big birthday cake. Thanks for the blue wallet which I need it so much. Thanks for the days that we spent together. Thanks for all the cares, understanding, thoughtfulness and LOVE from you. I am really blessed to have you in my life. Thanks 55!! *big HUGZ*

Thank you all for making my day!

*LOVE YOU ALL*

空

2008-12-21T10:27:00.003-08:00

我失去了对生日的期待。

我突然好想一个人猫在被窝里过就好了。

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每天看着你忙完这个忙那个

我只能等待你生活中的逗号

一起吃吃饭说说话

我知道你很努力也看到你的用心

但我的心，却莫名的空...

我很抗拒从忙碌中拼凑出来的时间

一点都不踏实

无法填补我内心的空缺。

习惯了两个人

我竟然没有能力过一个人的生活

一个人时不想吃饭

一个人时不想逛街

一个人时不想看电影

什么都不想做

什么都懒得做

只想有人陪...

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物质上的需求我可以自己满足

唯独情感的空，我无法独自填补

我真的什么都不想要

只要你的时间

给我一个人的时间。

可以吗...... :(

4 Years Back...

2008-12-12T19:33:00.003-08:00

前天，CCF连同CF、CSS，一起为下星期的报佳音练习。

首首圣诞诗歌，勾起了我四年前的回忆...

四年前的12月15日，我踏进了MMU的门槛。

当时才信主不久的我，对基督教信仰是蒙查查的。只记得基督徒在平安夜都会报佳音，记得佩凌告诉过我他哥哥在大学时有参加基督团契...

于是，Orientation时，意外看见一个OC带着大大的十字架项链，就趁break time趋前去问，

“请问这里有基督徒团契吗？”

很遗憾的，

『噢，我不是基督徒... 』

但奇妙的是，

『可是，我的roommate是基督徒团契的，我可以给你她的电话号码... 』

然后就背出一连串的数字。

就这样，我联络上了丁莹。第一天参加CCF，就是和她一起到Alan家练习报佳音...

当时有十二、三人。

我们练习报佳音、做doorgift、写卡片...

那是我第一次学唱圣诞诗歌。当中只有一首我会的 --

“平安夜... 圣善夜...万暗中... 光华射...... "

那时的CCF，人少少，但是很温馨，我真的体会到彼此之间的那份关心和爱。

人，总是要成长。CCF也是。所以，每一年，我们都祈求上帝加添人数。上帝很信实，祂听我们的祷告，把人数赐给我们。

现在的CCF，人多了，很热闹... 但每次在喧哗声中，我都会有一丝黯然。笑声多了，却少了什么...

我常常对身边比较亲近的弟兄姐妹说，CCF不一样了。

我个人觉得，现在的CCF，像个被呵护惯了的小孩。大家都过得太舒适了... 有时候稍微严厉的批评，就会遭到反弹。CCF，也似乎成为弟兄姐妹的依赖... 有什么事就会找弟兄姐妹帮忙。我们常常说，“好事来的...” 但我不禁要问，真的是好事来的吗？

我想起黄执中在03年国辩的结辩呈词...

“对方辩友认为，这场比赛是一种什么样的对决呢，他认为逆境是面对问题，面对困难，可是只有顺境才能克服问题，解决困难，因此他们，比我们价值上是更高的。可是仔细想想可能又不对了，什么叫做在顺境当中能够解决问题，那是人家帮你解决问题呀！我在顺境当中，父母帮我解决衣食问题，老师帮我解决课业问题，同学帮我抄笔记，解决了可能会被老师点到名的问题。在这样的顺境当中，我问题是解决了，可是我的解决吗，我这个人有成长吗？我也许学历越来越高，可能我的地位越来越高，可是我还是我，一拉开你的衣服跟学历，你还是一只猴子呀！所以我们今天要做的是要了解，真正能够在逆境当中成长的动机是因为逆境当中勇于面对问题，在面对问题当中，你由于没有顺境了，没有贵人了，没有机运了，你能够有的什么呢，两双拳头，两只脚，你要自己打出一片天，在这种过程当中，你如果成功了是你的成功，失败了，好歹你奋斗过一次嘛，这样的人生，不是比遇到贵人更值得我们欣赏吗？这样的人生不是不管成，不管败，好歹轰轰烈烈吗？” -- http://www.bianlun.net/bianlun/bbs/cgi-bin/topic.cgi?forum=42&topic=203

太多的爱和关心，造就了一个顺境，希望juniors们在这很好的环境下能够成长。但是就如辩词内所提到的，在顺境中，问题是解决了，却是seniors为juniors解决的问题。juniors们真的有成长吗？会不会有了seniors，导致juniors们在遇到问题时，忘了第一时间寻求上帝呢？这样下去，对上帝的信心又如何能被操练起来呢？

像Ivy说的，一份真正的爱，要有怜悯，也要有相等的公义... 陛珠姐也说，做事要有真理，且要有恩典...

走出了CCF，我们还能活出基督徒的生活吗？当在社会中、工作上遇到很难相处的同事，我们能够爱他们吗？当我们遭白眼被批评的时候，我们能够作出适当正确的回应并交由上帝为我们申冤吗？

我们真的能够吗？

对我来说，我期待的是juniors们，尤其我的门徒们，能够操练对上帝的信心，并且能时时与神同行。但是现在还是常常看到juniors们一旦遇到功课考试就不见人影... 这段日子，我觉得很愧疚于上帝... 没能把异象传递清楚，也没有影响到juniors们去学习与神同行... 而且，到要离开MMU了，我才有这样的反省和检讨。每次想到这件事，我就不禁觉得痛心...

唉...

世人哪！耶和华已指示你何为善，他向你所要的是什么呢？只要你行公义，好怜悯，存谦卑的心，与你的神同行 --- 弥赛亚书 6:8

Headache :(

2008-12-08T23:28:00.003-08:00

I really hate to come to this decision making point. :(

Industry? Or Academic?

I know I am not going to work for all my life. I am not a person that can stay for the same thing for long time. Whatever decision I make for now, it will just valid for the coming 2-3 years. After that? I don't know.

Maybe set up my own company??

Who knows :P

Anyway, Brother John and Sister Xue Er are very thoughtful. They know that most of us are going to graduate and will sure be headache for our future job. Hence, they had the discipleship with us on the topic "DISCERING GOD'S WILL FOR YOUR LIFE".

And this is what I learnt -- list out the pros and cons of two choices I am facing.

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Work in ANIMATION INDUSTRY

Pros
:: Can serve God in the market place by becoming an Influencer For Christ, approach more non-believers
:: I really enjoy myself with all these stuff
:: It might be a stepping stone for me to enter PIXAR or DISNEY or DREAMWORK one day? :P
:: Daddy will be happy because I can make achievement with this job. ( well, I will be happy too )

Cons
:: I need to get a car to go work. Personally don't think its safe for a female to walk in KL
( once in a month, it's fine. but can't do it for everyday ler )
:: I have to rent a room in somewhere nearby my working place and staying alone :(
:: It's definitely not good for health to stare at the computer for long hours, and this gonna happen everyday
:: Basic salary is lower.

Work in MMU as ASSISTANT LECTURER

Pros
:: Can't serve God fulltime but with this job, I can have slightly more free time ( than working in industry ) to be in CCF and help to take care of it. ( discipleship.. train juniors.. )
:: Basic salary is higher, and can take Master Programme for free. ( this is what I know. correct me if I am wrong )
:: As I have already familiar with Cyberia, looking for a place to stay or even living is not a problem
:: Healthier life. Don't have to work overnight or rush work to meet the dateline
:: Even got a car, I don't have to spend on petrol fees much because I can just walk to MMU from Cyberia.
:: Mummy will be happy because I don't have to work so tough. ( yes, I do hope I don't have to )

Cons
:: I never think of becoming an academician. It sounds like no great achievement >.<
:: Can't have time to improve my 3D skills :( Such a wastage
:: Hard for me to get back into industry later since this job will most likely rust my 3D skills after some time

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Is there any Pros or Cons that have been left out? Please kindly to help me add on then.

I am now trying my best to search for advices. I did talk to ex-lecturer who used to be in MMU but now in industry, and also lecturer who used to be in industry but now in MMU.

What's more important, I need to know which is the area that God want to put me in.

Pray Pray Pray...

Don't ever think that Christians are silly because always seek God in whaveter thing we met, seems like we are losting our control to our life.

The control is still with us. We seek God, because we know that God always gives us the BEST.
Nope, this is not theoritical.

This is definitely practical.

I seek Him because I have experienced the grace granted by Him :)

上帝的微笑

2008-12-02T06:04:00.003-08:00

-出自 Desmond传道文笔

懂得越多，我越认为，科学不是用来反对神的存在的。科学，是用来证明神的存在的 :)

Loving THURSDAY

2008-11-26T21:38:00.003-08:00

I love THURSDAY!!!

THURSDAY THURSDAY THURSDAY THURSDAY THURSDAY

Because every week there's a FYP progress check / crit on Thursday =( Hence, after a sleepless night, I am just like FREE from my FYP! *which last for 2-3 days only*

I want to go jalan-jalan... want to go eat McDonald... want to go for movie "BOLT"...

Yeah I am going to fulfill them all on tomorrow!!..

.. And with my dear of course *sweet*

I always think that I can't live without computer. BUT after this FYP, I want to REST without computer! So pening ler.. facing computer such long hours. I am so scared I will kena any serious disease because of the radiation...

Swear to you my dear eyes, I will let you stop seeing the computer for 1 week.

YES, 1 week! *long enough lar @@*

Another thing to mention,

Long time didn't hold my camera already. Just lend it to friends for their honeymoon trip. Miss the day hanging and taking pictures around in KL city alone.

Can I have it again?

Capture a picture at the waterfall during Kampar MT, by using ahsong's camera. Love it so much. I will sure get myself a superb DSLR once I save enough money for it! *waiting...*

** I just got my GSC website members birthday treat coupon!! Wohooo~~~ Million THANKS to GSC \o/

单纯的心

2008-11-23T19:53:00.003-08:00

“辩论的乐趣之一，就是让你能像婴儿一样的重新判断这个世界...”

喜欢这句芳泽从黄执中的blog所转载的。

像婴儿一样的重新判断这个世界。

“你们若不回转，变成小孩子的样式，断不能进天国。” 马太 18:3

随着年龄的增长，我们，也渐渐失去最单纯的那颗心。

不知觉中，我们被世界的复杂洗礼了。

小时候，大人说你可爱，你就会很开心。

现在，有人说你可爱，也许你会花时间去揣测这个人的话可信不可信，是真心话还是哄你开心的。

什么都不懂时，会先慢慢去了解一件事，然后再下判断。

觉得自己什么都懂时，就会先按自己对事情所了解的下判断。

被追求时，一朵花可能让你开心的睡不着。

在恋爱时，一朵花可能让你生气的睡不着。

懂得越多，想得越复杂，烦恼越烦。

好想重新拥有一颗像婴儿般单纯的心...

耶稣是谁? Who is Jesus?

2008-11-21T06:13:00.003-08:00

“宗教家？”

他们说，有人说是施洗的约翰。

有人说是以利亚。

又有人说是耶利米，

或是先知里的一位。

耶稣说，你们说我是谁。

多数不同信仰的人都承认耶稣基督是2000年前生活在以色列的好人。有人认为他是一位先知，也有人认为他是一位道德家，还有人认为他是一位宗教改革家。但是透过《圣经》的教导，我们不得不承认他是一位先知，一位道德家，或一位宗教改革家。

实际上，如果我们仔细查考《圣经》，我们便不会只把他当作好人，而必须承认他在这世上的存在是整个人类历史的中心，对他的适当的回应是永生的盼望。

你想要更了解谁是耶稣基督？他将如何改变你的生命吗？藉着唐崇荣牧师2008布道会《耶稣是谁？》，我们诚挚的邀请您与我们一同分享福音的好处！

People of different faiths generally accept that Jesus Christ was truly a good man who lived in Israel about 2000 years ago. Some consider him a prophet, while others regard him as a moral teacher, yet others see him as a religious revolutionist.

But when we honestly look at what the Bible tells us about Jesus, we would realize that he was definitely more than a prophet, a moral teacher or a revolutionist. In fact, if we were to closely examine the claims of Bible, we will no longer see him as a mere goodman. We shall have to acknowledge his presence on earth was the central event in all human history, and our eternal destiny has everything to do with our response to this event.

You are sincerely invited to come and gain a clear understanding of who Jesus really is, and to learn what Jesus to do with your life.

吉隆坡蕉赖体育馆
Cheras Badminton Stadium
布道大会 27/11 - 29/11 8pm
问题解答 29/11 6.30pm

http://www.stemi.my/whoisjesus/

唐崇荣牧师简介
唐崇荣牧师1940年出生是一位基督教布道家和神学家，世界华人福音事工联络中心副主席。是一位思想深邃、思维精密、逻辑严谨的神学思想家。在唐崇荣牧师许多的神学、哲学讲座中，常给人一种峰回路转，别有洞天的意外惊喜。唐家四昆之一，另外三兄弟为唐崇平牧师，唐崇明牧师和唐崇怀牧师。祖籍中国福建，是印尼国民，住在雅加达。在他五十年的工作中在全世界至少向二千万人演讲。他在十七岁时便开始传道人的事奉。他布道的特色是透过归正神学的圣经原则带领人归向基督。

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CCF is going this GOSPEL RALLY together. I am gonna have my personal invitation... those who received my e-card, really hope you guys can make it :)

辩论班与我

2008-11-21T02:29:00.003-08:00

在MMU已经快4年了。

真的是“一眨眼”就过了... 光阴如箭... 岁月似水流...

这4年，在辩论班总是浮浮沉沉。

曾经很有热忱的成为"new pork team" 的一份子，誓要打出一番成绩（知道这个team 的请不要偷笑，不知道这个team 的请看过就算 >.< ）... 后来却因为太累而要退出辩论班 @@ 曾经不愿意接下辩论班的担子... 后来却因为被口才太好的同党说服而当上班长，还成了华文学会文学股的工委之一 =.= 曾经答应教练会努力成为出色的辩手，埋头日以继夜准备辩论赛... 后来却因为决定转移生活的重心而不想再打任何比赛 >"< 曾经觉得去辩论班只是履行身为学长的一个责任... 后来却... 却...... ... 却可以很愿意出席甚至很期待每个周三的辩论训练 :) 真的咯。上个学期我真的觉得自己是被“逼”的。身为Cyber MMU目前屈指可数的senior之一，不可以对辩论班置之不理。虽然知道没有我，辩论班也能存活... 但责任感却不断迫使自己一定要去... 加上之前过于长的时间鲜少出席辩论班，冥冥中觉得难以溶入其内，更加不甚愿意。那天，上造就课程时，学习面对压力。雪娥姐问及我们各自面对的压力，我说出来了。我觉得去辩论班是一个压力。我说，也许，我太注重别人的眼光，太在乎别人怎么看我... 担心别人说我这个senior不尽责。雪娥姐说，淑婉，我说了可能你会觉得不对，但我觉得你不是太注重人，而是太不注重人。

我太不注重人?

雪娥姐接着说，因为你只想着完成自己成为senior的task，你看重的是完成自己的task，而不是看重辩论班里的人，所以才会觉得很辛苦。

所以？我要怎样？看重人？

......

当中学习的过程太过曲折，在此省略。

总之，现在出席辩论班，不再觉得有难处。ops... 不对。还是有难处的。这唯一的难处就是，

如何提升辩论班成员们的水平????

如何帮助他们进步????

真的。现在的我很享受和辩论班成员们在一起的时刻，也愿意花时间去为他们准备所需要的训练。也许，还需要一点时间来更加融入其中... 但我说过，我希望我在MMU的最后一个学期可以和辩论班成员们建立更好的关系。我要做的，我一定会努力做到 :P

责任很重要，人更重要。

谢谢现在的辩论班让我在MMU的最后一个学期成为其中的一份子 :)

I still remember

2008-11-06T06:43:00.003-08:00

I Still Remember

Lost, until You found me

Blind, until You healed me

Lord, I still remember

How Your love reached down and saved me

And now I have a reason for living

Now I have a hope that will not die

Each day that I awake,

I know why I'm breathing

And I'll be amazed at this for all my life

I'll be amazed at this for all my life.

Lord, You showed such mercy,

Cleansed my heart, forgave me

Lord, I still remember

How Your truth amazed and changed me

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I still remember

How you approached me

How you bring me back to you

How you changed my life

It's amazing

I still remember

But sometimes
I get too busy of my life
I have too many plans to be accomplished
And I have forgotten
All about you
Sorry Jesus :(

I will remember all the time

From now on

Promise you my Lord

好想...

2008-11-02T04:28:00.003-08:00

好想失忆

到一个陌生的地方

可以让眼泪完全蒸发的地方

开始一个新的生活

新的自己

It's time

2008-10-31T08:49:00.003-07:00

这完全不在我的计划中。

再过3个月，我的大学生涯将会正式宣告结束。是自由，抑或是更多的不自由？

未可知。

原本，我打算毕业后申请成为MMU的tutor。一方面，在Cyber久了，吃住方便，不用为去工作的交通烦恼；另一方面，也能继续参加CCF。

我以为可以就这样。

我错了。

命运不在人掌握当中。计划自然无法完美。

Gamma year的一个tutor离开MMU后，到很出名的一间Production House工作。最近公司在招募新生代的员工，她向公司推荐了我。昨天回居銮前，我和阿明去应征了。公司表示会等待我们的答复，一旦我们接受这份工作，他们将发信给我们。

太突然了。

她向我分享了在MMU当tutor的经验。我知道，这绝对不是我要的。我对教书没有兴趣。想申请MMU的工作，纯粹为了能留在Cyber这个安乐窝。

我想起了在Kampar短宣时的prayer night。

其实，我很希望自己可以全时间服事，尤其享受能够与上帝时时同在的喜乐。因为我知道，很多基督徒往往踏入职场后都会渐渐和上帝远离，工作的忙碌和世界的繁杂会带来灵命上的衰退。

但是那晚，面对雪娥姐挑战全时间事奉，我没有举手。上帝没有呼召我成为牧师成为传道人成为同工。是圣灵没有感动？还是自己不愿顺服？我只知道那时候，有一把声音在内心里告诉我，你要在职场上，在你专业的领域里来为主作见证，领人归主。有点莫名其妙，毕竟自己还没有决定好是否要在film and animation这方面继续发展。但我凭着信心，没有举手，仍觉得平安。

从短宣回来后，我接到了这份工作。一份突如其来的offer。

应征时，被tutor的分享打消了我想当tutor的念头。

回到家，意外的获得父母亲积极的认同。尤其以往常常唠叨我读这一行，期待我成为老师的妈妈，竟然叫我接下这份工作，说是有前途。@.@

是上帝的安排吗？

也许像阿明所说的吧，

“焉知你得了王后的位分，不是为现今的机会吗？”
-- 以斯帖记4:14

看起来，好像一切都安排妥当。很多人认为，要全时间事奉是需要走出安乐窝的。但是对我而言，恰恰好相反。因为工作是我最大的不愿意。不想离开Cyber，不想离开CCF，不想一个人独自在外生活... 如果要我工作，才是真正要我走出安乐窝。

我能够做到吗？

只能继续祷告。希望上帝能让我更加肯定前面的道路...

“我父啊，倘若可行，求你叫这杯离开我；然而，不要照我的意思，只要照你的意思。”
-- 马太福音26:39

Holiday Trip

2008-10-29T03:27:00.003-07:00

After one week Mission Trip at KAMPAR, it's finally the day that I have been looking forward throughout this semester -- Holiday Trip!!

Since I will graduate soon, I am now trying hard to spend my HOLIDAY with lots of trips which I might can't have them after working T.T In the midterm break of this semester, I went Alor Setar and Penang with ahfai and housemates. And now the semester break, I have had my...

... Genting Trip!!

It's such a boring place I know. But It's the easiest place to go and I am more familiar with =.= Actually I planned to go Cherating. But the Monsoon Season has forced me to cancel the plan :( I love beach :( And my partner in this trip...

... Mr.Fong Chee Fai!!

After discussed, we decided to have a trick for our trip :P First, we booked the First World hotel room through phone booking. Next, we bought the...

..."Go Genting Package" ...

...which meant for 1 day trip - RM42 include return bus+skyway tickets and theme park all park rides. Therefore we have actually just spent RM34.50 instead of the RM51 actual price of theme park all park rides.

Early in the morning of 28th Oct, 8pm, both os us departed from Cyberjaya. We took bus to OneU since there is a Genting counter. After bought 10.30am bus tickets, we went jalan-jalan in OneU first, buying some cup mee, snacks and our breakfast...

..bread~

While waiting for the bus to move, we have taken a photo with...

...no smile >.<

No pakat one. This so-called "默契" :P Because of waking up early, me and fai GG in the bus jor @@ 12.10pm, finally we reached Genting! Since 3pm only we can check in, the first thing we did is to keep our bags at the First World Hotel counter.

Next, we started our THEME PARK FUN!! It's so exciting for me. I have almost 3 years since last entered Theme Park!The first ride we tried is the NEW ride --

PIRATE SHIP!

So many people were queuing up =.= and 70% were Indians :- It's totally out of my expectation. The day before is Deepavali but the public holiday should be only 1 day right? Aiks... Anyway it didn't take really long time for us to wait. As we were in the middle on the queue, we had no choice to choose the seats but the last 3rd row when it's our turn. Else it would be more exciting to sit at the very last row.

Anyway it's shyok!! :P

Then we went for Spinner ( It really made me spinning >.< ), Super Toboggan, Boating ( My very first try~ ) and Rolling Thunder Mine Train ( My favourite!! ). Didn't really play much because lazy of queuing up.

Ahfai tried on the FLYING COASTER alone because I have played before.

While hanging around in the theme park, I have bought a...

...BLUE candy floss...

...but too bad I can't finish it @@ And I have taken photo with the London Bus just because of the word...

...CHELSEA!

3+pm, we back to the First World Hotel to check in. I have got the queuing number of 576 while it was just 456 at that time. The boy at the counter was nice, he asked me to go for a meal first so I won't waste my time on sitting there waiting. After back from lunch at MarryBrown and waiting for another 30 minutes, we finally got to check in. Guess what number of room we got? Ta daaa...

According to fai, 915 - 9 mean 长长久久. 1 is shu WAN. 5 is chee FAI =P

We took a rest until 7pm then continue our fun at indoor theme park. The 4D motion show was so disappointing. Not fun at all compared to the last time I entered. Then we went for Adult Bumper Cars. You know, nowadays many kids like to act as if they are adult. In fact this happened at the Adult Bumper Car there. 50% of the queue were kids!! Swt. I thought there was Junior Bumper Car at downstair? =.=

What make us more swt was, there was a TWIN ( 2 little cute boys ) queuing up after me and fai. And both of them sounded like want to challenge us =.=

After taking Euro Express, we were hesitating whether going to Video Game Park. At the end we decided not to go for the sake of our $$. So here it comes the moment I have been waiting for years -- enter the CASINO!! I used to be very curious about it and wish to have a look.

While entering, my CUTE dear ahfai was being stopped by the guard and asked for IC =.= This is quite under expectation anyway. Swt =.= The Casino SURPRISED me!! I was stunned once entered. It's so HIGH TECH man!! Most of the games are run by machine. LoLz.

Both of us of course didn't try on any game since we don't gamble. One thing I really cannot tahan in the Casino is the SMOKES. It kills... :(

About 9+pm, we back to the room and spent our time on NTV7 drama series while having cup mee as supper. The first day in Genting was over.

Next morning, we woke up at 8am to go for our free breakfast at First World Cafe. The breakfast was not really nice so we didn't eat lots. After breakfast, we went back zzz again. 11.30am, we checked out from hotel and started our return journey. Lucky that there were only both of us in cable car so we can...

...take photo! :P

We took 12.30pm bus back to OneU and had our lunch there...

... Charbroiled Burger!

It's really big. Both of us were sharing 1 set combo. After taking some time jalan-jalan in OneU, we left at 3pm and reached Cyber at 5pm.

That's our GENTING trip!! And I am addicted to the Theme Park Rides!! :P But I wish I can go again with more friends~ It will sure have more fun to go in a gang. Anyone interested?? :P

Wanna eat..

2008-10-14T22:59:00.003-07:00

Riceballs...

JCO Donuts...
Lekor Ikan...

Sushi...

Suddenly all these food come to my mind... maybe too stressed of my animation >.<>"<

对？错？

2008-10-13T02:23:00.003-07:00

自六年级看言情小说被妈妈痛骂后，我从未再碰过言情小说。

陪伴我成长的，是倪匡的科幻小说。尤其卫斯理系列。

倪匡的小说，除了当中的匪夷所思的科幻故事剧情外，更吸引我的，是他透过故事所带出的客观人性判断。

其中一部 - 《创造》，讲述了一对胸怀大志的科学家，从理论上认为人之所以犯罪，是由於脑部特殊活动的影响，於是他们找来了一个罪犯，解剖他的脑，一直将罪犯的脑电动记录，和他们自己的作比较，结果几乎相同，他们就认为成功了。可是，最后却被这个所谓被成功改造的罪犯所杀。既然他们已经将罪犯的脑电动纪录成功改至和他们一样，又为什么罪犯仍会犯罪呢？

这对科学家的目的，是要将王亭的犯罪思想去掉，成为一个好人。他们要创造一个新的、没有犯罪思想的人，而这种人，是以他们自己作为蓝本的。可是他们自己，是怎样的一类人呢？他们计划周密，使得一个抢匪上了他们的钩，成为他们的实验品，他们利用活人来作研究，他们的野心大到要改造整个人类，要改写人类的历史，他们算是甚麽类型的人呢？

这部小说给我的影响极其重大，虽然已经是好多年前所读的，可是它的一些字句仍清晰印在我的脑里。直至最近，可能是一些身边发生的事情所致，让我常常都回想起这个故事。

也许没有什么关系，但它让我反省到了，世界上没有一个人有绝对的对或绝对的错。不论你承认与否，每个人都有犯罪的思想。不一定是偷是抢，其实，以自我为中心，也是一种罪。有些时候，我们甚至认为自己是对的，希望别人在一件事情上能够和自己一样有一样“正确”的态度。当别人无法认同自己的看法时，就觉得对方固执或是不讲理。但试问问自己，能肯定自己所做所想的是完全正确的吗？就算是批判别人的错前，也是否应该先省查自己的思想行为呢？别人所做的事，也许在你看来很不“顺眼”，觉得不应该... 但什么才是应该的？你认为应该的，别人觉得不应该，那到底应不应该呢？

我是个不喜欢clubbing的人，曾经对之很反感... 觉得这是很没有意义的消遣，甚至觉得看不起去clubbing的人。但是现在，我知道自己那种想法是错的。毕竟，正如之前所提的，没有绝对的对或绝对的错，不能以clubbing 来判断一个人。不喜欢，是自己的事，去clubbing的人不一定是不好的，就算不去clubbing的人也不一定就是好的。我不是一个十全十美的人，有何来的权力去评断他人呢?

"你们不要论断人，免得你们被论断。

因为你们怎样论断人，也必怎样被论断；

你们用什么量器量给人，也必用什么量器量给你们。

为什么看见你弟兄眼中有刺，却不想自己眼中有梁木呢？

你自己眼中有梁木，怎能对你弟兄说：'容我去掉你眼中的刺呢？'

你这假冒为善的人!先去掉自己眼中的梁木，

然后才能看得清楚，去掉你弟兄眼中的刺。"

（马太福音7:1-5）

每个人的性格不同，接纳别人的意见，客观的去处理事情，对身边的人都会好一点。

其实偶尔，我会显得很专制，没有顾及其他人的感受和看法。所以，这是我还在学习的。对曾经被我伤害到的朋友，对不起，希望你们可以原谅我... :)

I am forced...

2008-10-08T21:41:00.003-07:00

I love them.

Really.

But this time I am forced...

You know I am not that violent people.

But he almost drives me crazy!!

and YOU!!!

YOU will be the next!

@$%&^%*&!^(*&%@#!

Bored

2008-10-03T12:35:00.003-07:00

THIS

is how an animator entertain him/herself.

THIS
is the fun part of being an animator.

THIS
is what I love about :)

Restocked

2008-09-26T10:15:00.003-07:00

LATEST NEWS:

Phlox have been RESTOCKED!!!

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You'll love it for sure ;)

*click here*

Funny Signboard

2008-09-26T09:28:00.003-07:00

Said funny but I think some of them are quite swt =.=

Anyway, knowing that everyone is pening kepala of preparing the exam, hope this post can bring you guys a laugh, or even a smile :)

*smile*

回家

2008-09-24T12:41:00.003-07:00

很 @.@ 地过了这几个星期。

突然间想不起自己是怎么过的。

连续三个星期赶着完成所有的model。

一赶完马上接着赶论文的draft。

二赶完马上接着赶动画人物的表情 blendshape 和 rigging。

三赶完终于都赶完了。

*phew*

星期二早上的 crit 一结束，马上整个人松懈了下来。

星期三晃来晃去。

星期四回家。

两个月没回家了。记得去年也是这个时候两个月没回家。

回家睡觉？

才怪。

我把电脑主机抬回家继续赶功课。一个星期没有电脑在实在没安全感。

提到论文，谢谢大家的鼎力相助。我原本预计 online survey 的 sample 是 60 人。但是9天内，回应的人数是 172。3 倍。真的好感动+ 感激 >.<

Kam-Sia-Ha-Mi-Da!!!

FYP - Character Animation

2008-09-09T08:19:00.003-07:00

近来，每当朋友们问起我的近况，我就会告诉他们..

" 忙Thesis和FYP ..."

然后大家就会很好奇的问，FYP 做些什么？

唔... 我的主科 FYP 是制作一部2-3分钟的动画，而我选择的主流是Character Animation。必须自己构思故事内容，制作立体动画人物，让他们演出动画剧情。

Lecturer 们对我们的整个制作过程看得很紧。学期一开始，就我们全部人签一份列下许多条规的协议书，给我们每人一份表格，列明每个星期都要consult 2个lecturer 关于我们的FYP进展，然后得到lecturers的印章。缺一个印章，不能出席Crit。缺席一个Crit，就直接被barred 。

=.= 够狠。

但lecturers没真的那么绝。偶尔真的有学生缺一两个印章，他们还是会让那些学生过关的。

目前，我们所在的stage是制作出动画场景和人物。

我比较喜欢可爱的设计。所以呢，我的动画场景和人物是比较cartoonish的。

两个主角，一个是海盗:
一只是猴子:

海盗和猴子的身形比例:

第三个是“咖喱角”，锯齿鱼：

简单的场景，两个不同的岛屿：

希望真的可以尽全力把我的动画做得最好最好。毕竟，这是我的成绩单 :)

Final Year Thesis

2008-08-31T10:10:00.003-07:00

最近我在看这本书 :

和这本书 :

???

因为这个学期要写一份 thesis，必须和 Final Year Porject 相关的。我的 Thesis Title 是

A Study On Human Attitude And Behavior Towards Environment

曾经很想读心理学。可是后来还是没有朝那个方向发展。虽然如此，我还是很喜欢去了解人类的思想和行为。这次的 thesis，给了我机会在这方面作一些研究。

态度和行为相互影响。但是在对环境方面，很多人似乎都有正确的态度却并没有把态度化为行为真正实践出来。

更加深入的探讨，还是需要大家的帮助来完成。以下是我的 Online Survey，希望大家可以花一点点的时间来回答。Survey 问题都很容易回答的 ^.^

>> Survey On Human Attitude And Behavior Towards Environment <<

谢谢哦... :)

Walk with God

2008-08-29T00:16:00.003-07:00

"I will intruct you
and teach you
in the way
you should go;
I will guide you
with My eye."
Psalm 32:8

I want to walk with God.

Yes.

I will walk with God.

MMU Convo' 08

2008-08-09T08:07:00.003-07:00

又是毕业的季节。

看着朋友们相继地带上四方帽向MMU挥别，心里不禁涌起一份期待。

明年。到我了。

恭喜你们毕业了。谢谢你们陪我一起度过在MMU的日子... 我真的会很想念你们的 T.T

奕强 - 因华文学会营会而认识，很照顾“小主人”的“小淘气”

涵镇 - 看似吊儿郎当，其实很细心的好朋友

嘉俊 - 可以交心的对象，虽然很少聊天 =.= 泽豪 - 我在MMU最珍惜的大哥哥，好朋友

传真 - 谢谢你常常都很看得起我 :P

芳泽 - 一起和我在辩论班打拼最久的战友

荻苇 - 虽然很少联络，却很关心照顾我的 ahgor

质青(上）和Suki（下）- 我初进MMU的 roommates

燕廷 - 真的很关心人的sister. Thanks for your love and everything

永盛 - 我会记得你常在CCF里的笑声 ^^

谢谢你常常对我的爱心和关心... Love you Kelly.

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SPECIAL THANKS TO

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欣怡

大老远从KK买花等auntie包花，再抱着重重的花走进Campus.. 辛苦了 >.<

ahfai

陪我赶来赶去，充当我的摄影师 ^^

Phlox Studio

2008-07-20T09:58:00.003-07:00

为了一个credit hour的CyberPreneurship课。8个人开始搞了个大买卖。

我们卖流行的服饰。

我们卖流行的帽子。

我们卖流行的耳环。

我们卖流行的手饰。

我们卖流行的项链。

除了网上购买，我们主要在MMU校园里设立柜台，让MMU学生能够不出Cyber就能购买到心仪且紧跟潮流的衣服和饰物。

还可以有机会接受免费的全身大改造，参与投选竞赛，赢取服饰~

欲知更多详情

http://phloxstudio.blogspot.com

期待你的光顾 ^_^

蓝摄 ☼ 心情札记

写给敬爱的四姑

是时候苏醒了 :)

为日本祷告 Pray for Japan

*生日感言*

中毒记

从搭巴士开始的旅程

My First Photobook!

Ming & Kim

Joel - Part 01

其实...

抉择

Bye

Short & Quick Update

I want BIG HEADz!!

Blessed =)

城市生活

祝福

我的第一天

Blog Combo

我仍要仰望我的神

不明白

Wonder-Bots

怀念中...

UKM Convo

It's up for vote!

c.a.r

四方帽的那一天

It's COMING!

Fuddled by Music

What about us?

Thanks people!

Memories

DIY shirt

Emo...

Be strong, Chor Meng...

u.p.d.a.t.e

小大人little adult

Links added!

What it would be...?

我。不。相。信。

it's just a Dream

Dedicated

痛

My card is in the stores!

Thanks to FOLDEES!!

dream Car

Cover Design of Choir Song Book

Doubt

My 1st Greeting Card!

For MJ

写给曾经的二哥

Restart?

Cartoon designed

The 7th Day

1st Day Working

CCF Kites Flying Trip

问卷调查 -- 你相信有神吗？

无题

2nd couple T designed

A reminder for my dear coursemates!

Sample Couple T

Couple T

Just spot this

My FYP - The Survivor

茫 。 然 。

妹妹 回来了~

农历新年：2009

Holiday at Miri - Brunei

LaLaLaaa

ThankSsSss!!

空

4 Years Back...

Headache :(

上帝的微笑

Loving THURSDAY

单纯的心

耶稣是谁? Who is Jesus?

辩论班与我

I still remember

生日感言

茫。然。

妹妹回来了~